If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.

Saturday, December 29, 2007


everyone or maybe i should not generalise it, but most people i know will fall in love with the place that they went. especially the first place that they went, on a long journey, the first long hauled plane ride they went.

the first person that told me how much they love the place that they went was Dharmik, when he went to Australia for the first time, its his first long trip. long holiday. and i still remember what he said and i quote "its so lovely i wish to stay there" and also ashley says how much she love canada, as lots of sweet memories she had there at pegion moutain, and how amazing the first feel of snow. am not suprise IF its the first long trip raja took to new zealand now and he will say how beautiful the place is and all. and i will b waiting to hear all the stories as all these stories, others experience can b useful to myself too, if am lucky enough to visit next time.

as for me personally, this year's trip, well was beautiful. as usual i was not that excited before the flight and during the trip. typical me not appreciatiing the moment. but i kinda love it at Italy. beautiful people, nice town, scenery, weather, the whole 9 yard. although it is one of the place that i would love to visit one day, i mean watching italian football and eating italian food, italian fashion on tv, and music.. heck, i can say i love it there. so am thankful for 2007 for the trip to Europe.

no matter how much i love it over there. at the same time i do still love Malaysia. after all, home is where the heart is right? i love the places that i visited in Malaysia, Penang is particular with the beaches and food. and not forgetting my dear hometown in Kelantan. even if the place is not that develop, heck it have a special place is my heart. of course there no megamall or beatuful beaches like in Terrenganu or cleaner and well kept like Terrengganu, it still my home after all. the 3 trips to Terrengganu/Kuantan this year was a nice too and of course lots of wonderful memories too. its too bad really i am gonna give the trip to Mout Kinabalu next year a miss due to classes.

the reason why i thinking of all this is when i saw the news bout ANC earlier. of course its some political party in south africa, but then again, for me, can be Astro Nature Circle too. a society that i joined in Melaka Campus. kinda bring me back on how those meetings where everyone suppose to create a circle during committee meeting. and some meeting till late night at the ClC concourse. some might think , is Julian missing Melaka?mayb my frens Andre and Vicki was right, Melaka is a place to visit for 1 day or 2 but never a place to stay. no offense but its kinda boring.

as we all bidding goodbye to 2007, there are still few things that i cant let go. like flying. maybe travelling will heal it. seeing and experience new things certainly a wonderful experience. visiting different places with different people certainly bring different dimension to the experience. i mean even if i stay in Kl for most of my life, i still wont know where to get the best mee goreng right? after all visitng places DOES open our eyes to new things

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

merry happy christmas!

ting tong ting tong.......... the chiristmas bells rings and of course bring delight to everyone, from 1 to 92. opening gift of course something that been anticipated for everyone. i mean, how can u NOT like gifts?!

well, this years gift was suprising. even some i've already knew, but den again the trill of opening the wrapper and wondering whats inside, get me all excited. and also the joy from seeing others opening up their present, expecially if its from u.

after opening up all the gifts.. its bed time as church will be at 8am and we need to get up early to get there as it was easily full.

FGA, jalan kelang lama was the place and i can see there lots of upgrades happening, the chair are so similar to the one at the cinema.anyways this year's show was not as good as last year, because its from the young adult. boring ppl do some choir. unlike the year before with the youth church or the children's that was fun. anyways, during my annual visit of course there are prayers and for the blessing for the year.

after taking a short meal, we headed of to Victoria station to pick up the Turkey and went to Botanic Garden to give the Turkey to Uncle Chan's family. we had roasted duck for lunch.den my dad got call for one of his millions cousin. so we went to USj 11 to see them. all this relative here can be really intimidated when i meet them. its not like they are angry people, just most of them are successful.

and i also met "mr. romantic" i mean i heard of this uncle before but never actually met him. well his story was, when his wife passed away, he went and visit his wife grave EVERYDAY, without fail, there he bring flowers and spend some time with his wife. yes stories that can break and touched your heart huh?

wen back home, ashley honey come over. after saturday night shopped for her gift with my mom and sister and with all those wool at MNG entering my nose which cause the flu am having till today, finall its in the wrapper. and this time, yes i can c her hand all shaking opening the gift. so its all good, she having good time opening the gift and i having a good time laughing my butt off :D

my cousin and his gf came after that, and they come with gifts too.. really really really last minuete shop as they come straight from 1u den to my place. but was nice of them. we end up having Hokkien Mee at damansara utama, since my dad is forever loving that mee.

well, christmas have been wonderful this year. and the build up to christmas too was great. and it all started when ashley come back to start thing off to the end with the hokkien mee at DU. from start to finish, i had a great time. yes it would be great if the party that was planned was ON, but den again, there is DEna's party to make it up for. and like the saying goes, u cant have everything in this world, yes i cant, i mean there area some friends that i like to see like amar, raja or dharmik to share this festive season and some family like my cousin michelle, but of course with the regular fixture with my family and ashley, its been a wonderful christmas and not forgetting friends too. so a happy new year everyone and wishin you all a prosperous new year ahead. God Bless

eve- thats hot!

for the eve dinner, was at the hilton. my turn to choose on where to eat and i gladly say, it was spot on as everyone thinks the food was good and fresh. so it was my family, one of my cousin and joined by Uncle Ooi and his girlfriend. they have the train set at the lobby, which is HUGE! i mean HUGE! its a double deck track and the width of the whole thing is like mayb 50+ meter?
anyways, it occupied a huge potion of the lobby

and den........... the eating begins.. FOOD!!, how i love the sound of that. various cusine, from tradtional western with the turkey and ribs,malaysia with the likes of satay, indian, with tandoori's japs, with sushi, and also chinese with some chinese veg,seabus and also comtemperary dish like choco fountain, prawn cocktail and etc, nice buffet :D

the blardi hell moment of the day was, when i was tricked into taking one of the cocktail shot. its a bloddy merry and it comes with oyster in it. my cousin and Uncle Ooi's gf says it was good, and as a guess i expect her to be the last person who trick me. the blardi think taste like fish water!!! and am suppose to drink it like a shot after chewing the lemon grass. argh! maybe for both of them, it tasted good, but i certainly DO NOT enjoy it. anyways, there is always good old satay and the peanut gravy to overcome the awful taste.

after dinner around 1030, went to the lobby as there is a choir with a panist there.watch them sing and everyone started to clap and sing along.

finnally arrived home just in time for the gifts!, just before the stroke of midnight around 1130 :D

*present present present, present present present, sing with me now... present present present *

Sunday, December 23, 2007

cant buy me LOVE!!

sunday make my christmas doubly jolly and a new year a happy happy one. went to mid V again with the sweetheart ashley. poor sweetheart this time gotta follow we shop and shop and shop. as we walked almost all the major shop in gardens and mid V. had such a great time

talking bout retail therphy, i brought my christmas spending to a record that i never spend that much before in a day .but i shall NOT complaion bout the hole in teh pocket as all those gifts are for those who i care most. like the song goes.. " cant buy me love..."

later the night, my uncle who din see for ages suddenly come visist the house. maybe thats the magic of this festive season. which is bringing everyone togather. we went out for food after Christiano Ronaldo score that beautiful penalty kick. and bum into one of the family friend, from our small town. apparently he is the a Senator right now.

so the eve is tonight.. off to the hilton, and like one famous hilton said " thats HOT"

full house

saturday was a bit of a slow day. day only started in the evening as my mom have her facial appointment. so half way, my dad decided to let me try out my ssiter's new car. she was worried, especially hlaf way to mid valley it poured like mad! the visibility level is LOW. anyways i made it thru to the parking. and we end up at the gardens.

was greeted with the store "coach" as i browse around the wallet cost around Rm 1600.. yummy. as we walk around, i followed everyone as i wanted to know what they like. the hint were, staring at certain things for a LONG time, lie to them and tell them don have any more size, been forced to use every dirty trick in the book so they wont buy it.

waited for mom till 8 pm as my dad went home with my brother who just arrived from JB. when mom arrived, she wanted to finish off her "suprise " gift for everyone. as time flies, we found out that LOTS of the shop are closing. we arrived home around 11pm.

open letter

dear you,

yes, i hardly know you. but u seem nice and friendly.but i guess u finally showed your true cour huh? even if he is not my best friend, he is still my friend, and what u have done to him is not very nice, in fact its a demostrate what a bitch you can be. yes you might score good grades and probably in one of the top uni in the world and at central of London town. you have it all, and on the other hand, your guy here working his ass off, putting off his education for half a year just so he could afford to see you, and yet you cheated on him with some white trash that u met at a club for just a few weeks? i'll say fuck you. a cheap slut like you should get gang raped by those drunked white trash at all those clubs that you love to go so much, in fact you r FAT, like u have 10 kg of Turkey up your ass. so fuck you, you cheap slut. your grades cetainly don't show what kind of person you really are, shallow and just plain cheap, why don you just take a tube to Soho and just offer your service. thank you very much.

p/s : and those who feel Malaysia is a rat hole and if you'll don feel safe here, think again. think how you all can afford to go abraod. its because your parents make the money HERE in Malaysia, if its wasn't for Malaysia, God knows where you will be. so be gretful in this "humid" weather, that you all been in for most of your life.

thank you, and merry x'mas may your soul burn in hell

reunion.. dena's x'mas party

got a suprise sms from raja. he was gonna leave for New Zealand in 10 minutes. was shocked, so i quickly call him. he was gonnna visit his bro there. lucky fella. have fun mate!

during that friday night, rizal fetch me to go to dena's party. i think its an annual party. inside the car i saw prem. prem, the gangster wannabe, who is always shy and the one who work with me during our spm break and even when he shifted to hartamas in secondary i still saw he sometimes at tutiton and the line of his life is when kavitha asked him " prem, come lets dance" at parisha's party.

oh well, with the car, there is one other car too following, its ray's. and sharean was inside it. thing is, way back in secondary and primary these two are my good friends. we are so close that some of the girls call us gay. but due to some bitchness n puffy doggy eyes, we din talk to each other for quite a while already, mayb a year?

i feel akward at the party, not to mention lost. its been a while since i see all of them. mayb i was stuck at mmu for FAR too long. its hard to strike a convo or just joking around with them. maybe if i just see and hang with them more often, i might get the old feeling back, i mean all these people i feel most comfy with, and they know me for ages. never feel so lost and at the same time glad to see everyone especially during the holiday season.

yes, i've said before, this christmas is gonna be special and what special was to see everyone again and having the one i wanted to see most,ash. although she think she was not invited, think dena did explained to her and i took the blame as ALWAYS hehehehe.. was damn funny how dena talk to her on the phone.

we all went to pelita and i was home at 130 am. its nice to hear from everyone and get some update what they are doing. although not ALL are good news..


parents day

its a friday. i was suprise to se my dad as he woke me up. i have no idea that he is on leave.he bug me to follow him to run errant. the first was the car wash, den off to faber office near old klang road, to pay the house thing. and then to lucky garden to go to the bank. adn in the car the normal lecture and conco bout education and stuff. although it did keep him quiet for a moment as i bring up the flying school. anyways, mrs.gan called ask to go lunch with her. so we went to her office to have lunch. and during lunch, dad gave me money to cut my hair ;( they been bugging me to cut it off for quite a while. so now i have no reason to NOT to cut my hair. goodbye oh dear ponytail...

meeting the family

its a public hols, so the generous and kind hearted and not to mention one and only girlfriend come over with some gifts from the UK. she gave the fruit cakes for my family and chatted with my family for over 2 hours! i was disappointed she was not shaking like the first time she saw them, or else i would have fun.. hmph!

anyways.. she gave me one of the sweetest gift ever for my b'day, even though its late but i don mind at ALL.i love her so much. its a genuine Manchester United 07/08 jersey with my name on it and have a number 10. the mark of a great player, like ruud van nisterooy and now wayne rooney. it flew all the way from the europe. ahhhhhhhhh.... the joy and the sweetness, am happy! just thinking bout it now making me wanna give her a HUGE hug.* a hint for u, get out of the house!*

went to the curve with my aunt and her family and also my cousins later for lunch. shop there a while off they go to back to their home. some to Jb, some took the flight to Kelantan. sayonara, and hope to c u all again in febuary for chinese new year.

being the older one

i went to the mall the next day. i suppose to get my christmas shopping done. so the sweetness of Ashley Chin come over at 10, while those kids still sleeping like pigs so off we went to mid v. So SO happy.. as it feel like ages since v go out togather. love every moment of it. i was indecided and walking and walking making me tired till we go down the escalator and there lost of those teddy on sale. i think hallmark having parade their stuff. something struck me, i feel like getting those kids some gifts.

i mean wen i was small, there lots i've wanted but i never asked the elder one, either my siblings or cousins. i just think it would b nice if they go back to their home the next day with some gift and putting a smile on each of those small faces during the christmas period would be nice.

so i got some stuff for 5 of the girls at the hallmark store and a Lego set for the boy. the tiny hands helped me wrap up the gifts ;D

too bad for one of my cousins as she left her hp on the cab when she went to the pasar malam at cheras. but being a kid, they never would feel sad. still can hear her giggle and laugh the whole night thru.

am back- road home

as promised i'll be home for x'mas. the road home wasn't easy as i have to carry my lauggage plus my heavy cpu, as a cicak gladly make my power supply its own home, thus making is explode. * kaboom!* amyways, the road home was made easier by vi ling, as vi ling dropped me at the kajang comuter station. off i take the comuter to the mid valley station.

den *boom!* the christmas mood struck me. all the load i've carry don't seem to feel like a burden no more. hehehehhehe. after droppiong off the cpu at the computer shop, i went to take my long awaited gift that i've ordered a few month back.can see the relieve from the sale people that i finally take that gift and paid the other half of the ammout. with the anticipation of seeing the one and only sweetheart of mine, i quickly jump into the cab to her house, with all smelly-ness and sweaty-ness and all. had such a comfortable time. and even if i need to walk back with those heavy bags, but i have a HUGE smile on my face.

as i returned home, i doze off at the couch, those nice and comfortable couch that i miss very much till my mom get home. i asked my sister to go to mid valley with me to collect my computer and at the same time can try out her new car. the car is alright, but the unfair part is she got her plate number according to her b'day, without my mom's knowledge and dad played some vital role.

as i opened the house door with my cpu, i was greeted with all those small kids that is from Times Square theme park. my house was like a kindgerten!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

party time!

ahhh... the finally here. my widget countdown now says 22 more hours. everything seems beautiful now, even britney's gimme more sound like the bird singing in the morning. with just one more assignment to go.. and it seems promising since the graph it seems looking good. wonder what will spoilt it for me. putting that far away, even if people don't really like me or the way i get things done, who cares? know why? i tell you why
  • the reason of for my smile gonna b back in 22hrs
  • lots of things waiting for me at home, so i got lots to look forward to
  • shopping! x'mas shoppings
  • parties
  • and the wonderful time of the year is here

thus, whats there to NOT be happy about?of course there some who think they are "wise" talking behind my back,guess they don't really practise what they preache.

with that aside, it time to get back to my old tune..

this is the remix to ignition

hot and fresh out the kitchen

mama rollin that body

got evey man in her wishin

sippin on coke and rumim

like so what im drunk

its the freakin weekend baby

im about to have me some fun

(R.kelly's ignition)

Friday, December 14, 2007

you're coming home!

close your eyes and picture it...
being FAR FAR away from home,
and u just awaken from your sleep on the plane back home,
with the headphone still playing daughtry,
"I'm going home,Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me"
while the stewardess offer you an old long time coming nasi lemak
and before you know it,
the captain will announce
"welcome to Malaysia, and for Malaysian, welcome home"

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

i'll be home for Christmas

the making..

the video..

christmas certainly have a certain meaning to everyone, other than celebrating the birth of Jesus, there lots of other reason too for the chirstmas celebration. maybe for some, christmas have been comercialise, or some might think, " hey am not christian, so i don celebrate it"

but for me personally, the true meaning of christmas is the gathering. its similar to the Chinese New Year's eve dinner, but for me Christmas is more to the smaller scale,as in it don't involve ALL the uncle and aunty, mostly its just my family, without the extended one.

i think the video describe Christmas very well, i mean, if u watch the video above, on how the boy run to the father, and gave him a HUGE hug.. don that just touch your heart? i mean, if that don moved you, den i dono what will. although the video, its about the soilder coming back, arent we similar? i mean, as we grow, there some of our family or siblings, might leave the hse to further their study, or work. i mean, people leave their house and at this particular time, during the holiday season, everyone just gather again, after being FAR apart for long. don that just make u smile? when u saw the one that u love and care, right in front of u, not through the screen on the computer or the picture that we hav in our wallet.

one year i remembered, after our christmas dinner, i was told "if when am no longer here, you all must gather among yourself, no matter how busy you are because...... you are all family". am sure everyone have someone special in their heart, let it be girlfriend/boy friend, family, best friend, that we want to see badly but don't have the oppurtunity, so as a suggestion, how bout take the chance during christmas to take time no matter how mafan it is to travel, to see maybe that person or all the person that YOU wanna c.

being away this christmas and havent bought any gift yet, i would like to take the chance to apologise if i am a bit rushing to get everything done as soon as possible and in the process might offend anyone or i might not make time to celebrate any b'days or gathering or just to hang, as i am rushin to get my revision done and also assignment.i hope everyone would understand, as Christmas is one of my favourite yime of the year, i might sound selfish here, but i guess, i have my priority, which is my family.

am dreaming tonight of a place I love

Even more than I usually do

And although I know it's a long road back

I promise you

'll be home for Christmas

You can count on me

*you'll be home for christmas, thinking bout it make my heart sing*

Monday, December 10, 2007

wedding pics

cousins- no my eye not that small
nah! take lah.. the aunty like dont wanna give only

the lil creature call lil hamster

yes.. i know i look good

golden itu emas

mom and cousin

the siblings

rain rain go away

the weather today describe the day today. dark and cloudy and rainy.its my first time studying at the library from morning till night for an exam. a mid term to be exact.but all that work, don seem to pay off. there lots of question that are blank. why? because there lil time to do and the solutions are LONG.of course LOTS others cant finish as well, although that is some consolation, but then again,there are some also finish. guess i need to work by the dec 16th dateline...

Thursday, December 6, 2007

200th post! and suprise b'day part 2


the gan cousin celebrating b'day

the gan's cake

tan"tai lo" kean

group pic after cake fight


out of the pool

i swear he wrestle before

as the night as i tought to be over, i got a call from pei se, to ask go do assignment and all the group members already there, so i got no choice but to go.i do smell something fishy as i went to the house and nobody open the door, and suddenly they wan me to go to the pool side, i already know whats waiting.

as i try to bargain with them so i don need to be thrown into the pool, yee kean sudddenly rushed to me and give some wrestling hold, which i cant do anything much bout it. thus the rest appraoch me to get my valueble out so it wont be damanged in the water. too bad for them, the guards are there, thus they need to rush as fast as possible after dropping me. while hiding, the cakes arrive., and the " pull the candle out by ur mouth" trickbeen used. i never expect the cake is just a bait, as its just cake make out of cream, icing. and the whole icing throwing happen.with my nose full of icing, and also my shirt and pants and shoes. am all covered with the icing. it does feel like u got a flu when all those icing up ur nostrol. and icing + eye, can be quite sting-y.

i went to wash up, after done throwing icing and also taking pics. its kinda a hard work washing all those icing out. especially with icing in my shoe- the next morning, i saw my shoe full of ants as it dry my shoe. do feel a bit sleepy after bathe, i guess its a bit cold. but the night is still young they say. they wanted to go makan, and we went to "gasoline". its like a bistro kinda thing near south city plaza. it was my first time there.

there have the heavenly baked chocolate indulgence waiting for my me. they decide to to celebrate pei se's b'day too as its already almost 12 and her b'day on the 5th.after makan, went to kim's and eric's place to share out the bill. from kicking the ball around the living room, one thing lead to another, and they end up playing blackjack. for me, i was asleep till they woke me up at 4am to go back.

what a day.how nice it would be if its my b'day everyday. its nice to have your friends and family to celebrate it for u. 2 more b'day to go i guess..den only i can finally say i celebrate with everyone i wanted.although the one that u wan to celebrate with is not here, i guess its like the saying goes, God close the door for u, but open a window for you. thus, i would like to thank individualy those who make this b'day a memorable one. my cousins, aunty and uncle and my family who celebrate it at Terengganu, my ashley, who celebrate with me on9, my friends from school, who suprise me, from dena, vicki, ranpreet,gurdip and gulpreet. and also not to forget my MMU's classmate and friends, wai luen,yee kean, juan jie, pei se, kwek, kim, yin fung, eric, jansen,kean kong, kok jin, kelvin, meiseim, kah kean, and kawai. sorry if i miss out anyone. also thanks for the b'day wishes thru sms, friendster or facebook. thank u again everyone.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

suprise b'day part 1

its been a quite unexpected b'day this year. although the initial plan was at Hard Rock with my family as i was impressed with the one at Rome.as they are very busy as they are preparing their trip to Shanghai and brother at Johor working plus my sister just start new job, i guess they are kinda busy. so i guess, i shall not suggest it. as my trip from Terengganu was exhausting. and need to get up at 5am to get the train to cyberjaya for class.. so its kinda very tiring b'day morning for me. thus, i went home to rest my eyes. as i was kinda tired to do any celebration plus i know, most of my friends are still broke anyways.

at 6p.m a mosquito named "ranpreet" called.to ask to go for a drink. as i was so tired i was reluctant to move my heavy butt off the bed. but she said she already at my door ringing the bell.. but to my suprise there 4 others that i din expect to show up. vicki leong who suppose to be working, dena who just finished stpm gurdip who just done with A levels and also her sister.

it was sweet of them to visit me during my b'day.really. i mean how many people would drive almost 40 km plus or half and hour- 45 minutes drive to spend b'day with a friend who they hardly see for ages. but oh well, like the saying goes.. a friend in need is a fren in deed. so being the normal crazy and noisy gang.. crazy as in good crazy.we went on a road trip around putrajaya as we are find our way to Alamanda.lots of turns, wrongs one, lots of honking too and bumper crash. and of course lots of laughter.its nice to have the old faces again, and the familiar laughter.

had Mc d for dinner. till vicki and dena was supposedly went "toilet". they took damn long and i do smell something fishy. so i was proven right as dena said to meet at the park. there i saw dena and vic seating at the secret receipi. the joke was when they oder, vicki said " tunggu 4 perempuan india dan satu budak cina pakai baju kuning" as they wan to wait till i arrive only to serve the cake. according to dena, the way she said it was like some ah long. anyways.. lots of pic been taken-camwhores. as walk around alamanda, to sum up a wonderfuly suprisingly night with sweet friends like this. who need enemy rite? and yes.. goin out with a group of girls, am not suprise if we stop to a women's shop. they stop at elianto where i got my finger painted.

on the way back to cyberjaya, we admire the beautiful bridge while findin the way back. so i would like to take this oppurtunity to thank vicki leong, dena, ranpreet, gurdip and her sister, gulpreet( i think). the feeling at that time i shall describe is a "touched". so thank u again u guys.

last weekend as an 18

deja vu..sungai ular
kitty and mummy

disable toilet? or woman's?

our only car.. in morning


Monday, December 3, 2007

last weekend of an 18, today, am 19

so another year have passed on by.it seems like a blink of an eye now.year and year goes on by, and i always wonder and ponder what i have acheive during the pass year. gone were the good old schooling days, heck i miss it like crazy whenever i think of it. friends have come and go, and some have move on, those that are gone being replaced by new faces, but those who are still around, will remaind around, as time was never a an obstcle to hold a friendship

from the past i remembered, during form 4, as i went to times square with andre,amar and his friends to participate on a streetball challenge. and during the form 5, i got dump in the mud after playing football in the morning at the bangsar sports complex with dharmik and friends.well, that was the first time ever they got me, as my birthday normally during the hols. the traditional birthday boy wacking.

last year i remembered celebrating my b'day 2 days earlier on the 2nd, at an ex place. with my friends. so that was when am 18.with just a blink, am 19 today.the things that change is...people around me,i finally got the 1 that captured my heart for about 5 years.and have one of the wonderful gift for valentine. my best frens of 9 years clearly have some issues with me. my year started great as i got an invitation to go for a test for my dream job as a airline pilot. although its still a mystery if i throw away the test as i don't wanna miss the goodtime for the propose stay in Sri Kembangan, or i just go there unprepare. although, the move to sri kembangan collapse due to multiple reasons, i still wave goodbye to melaka and make it into the cyber campus.having hated to stay on in MMU, as i don feel its the place for me, i guess am adapting slowly to the fact that i am in too deep to change anyting.

well, last weekend was like a trip back. a walk down memory lane. i went to a trip to the east cost, as one of my cousin getting married.its the 3rd time this year alone that i take the trip to kuatan/ terengganu. and i even visited the same fishing village that i visited during the chinese new year hols, and pass on Beserah, where i have a great holiday there during my August break. there lots of places i been to also this year. other than the east coast, i get a taste of my first long long hauled flight to europe. Italy and Austria to be specific. the once might Rome, full of its architecture,Florence, with its great leather goods, Sienna, with the great country side, Pisa with the wonderful leaning tower and the romatic city of Venice, sums up my italian trip. then furhter up north to Austria, with the world renown Swarovski crystal in Innsbrug, where i went on one of the world famous highway the Autobahn, and visit the lil town of mozart in salzbrug and the grand city of maria theresa, in Vienna. well, that trip is one of those trip that deserve to be in the top shelve as one of those moment that i wont forget.

the trip to terengganu last weekend sure remind me of what it was last time. where there are family friends everywhere at the east coast. we stopped at kemaman to see one of my mom's friend. the husband and wife couple have moved away since i was 2 years old, and yet she get my name right with her first try.its amazing when people know you, even when its been ages since u saw them, or you don even remember seeing their face. i had one of the sweetest sambal for my nasi lemak. this trip remind me Anthony Bourdain, where he often try out street food during his trip, so was i when i went to the market.its like a food heaven where u wan to taste everything there as you are so curious by just looking at the food. as we arrive in terengganu, we met up with my uncle and his family. we stayed nearby the tunku mizan golf and country resort. it is around 4-8 km from Pulau Duyong, where the Moonsoon cup was held.upon arrival, we decided to eat at the stall nearby where they serve lots of local food, like variety of kuih, nasi dagang, which is the signature trandmark of terengganu, and of coz, the fish sausage, or keropok lekor. yes, tony Bourdain was right, everything is good when its deep fried, and there is some deeping. the keropok is DAMN addictive.

my mom and aunt decided to pay my cousin who is getting married a visit as her house was nearby. for me, i decided to join my dad and uncle to watch the Hk badminton open finals between our national hero, lee chong wei and world number 1, lin dan. although the first set seeing lin dan being out of his character making school boy error, but at the middle of the second set,i fall asleep, i think its because of overdose of keropok.

the night was the time for the wedding. my parents decided to stop at the secret receipe to order a cake. they was saying its for my b'day. although i try to insist thats its OK, but they go ahead anyways.as we arrive at the restaurant, saw my cousin. i think i can say its the first time i saw her in skirt. or a dress. she look totally different, and the first question she asked me was" what the hell u do with ur hair?! go cut!" so there the picture taking and we off to dinner.with the typical chinese dinner. although the stuffed crab did caught my eye. heheheheh. and then, my old man decided to go on the stage and take the mic, to represent my cousin's side, the wowan side. the song was "will u still love me tomorrow?" although it was emberessing, i guess no choice but to scream and support him. and then, my aunt sang a hokkien song i think. lost the voice screaming, and there's the "yam seng" session. i had plain water instead of alcohol. so its all good.

when the night was about to over, stopped by secret receipe to get my cake. sadly, they don't have chocolate indulgence, but they bought classic cheese i think.it was not that bad. quite tasty too. its emberessing to have your lil cousin's and uncle and aunty to sing "happy b'day" for u.and this time, its in 2 language. english and mandrin. you see, am normally a family kinda person. everytime b'day dinner or celberation is with family not my extended family. unlike my sis who always want to celebrate with her frens. anyways, all i can say is, its a nice change and having b'day when family member around, its kinda economically PROFITABLE.

the next day was the tea ceremony. while waiting for the groom to come,there lots of convo and jokes about asking my cousin and bro to choose one of the bride's entourage.as they are all girls. when the groom arrive, they played some game as a hurdle. but i can say that they let him in TOO easily.as all the tea ceremony done, we went to the guy's side, with all the honking.we pack our stuff and head back to KL after that.

on the way i say, Kertih. they should rename the place to Petronas or something. as the whole town is circle around Petronas. from the school and also the quaters. the place is HUGE!! as we stopped middle of the road, for more fish sausage (keropok lekor) the thing is so yummy, i think bought almost rm 10 and i think i eat most of it. and if am not mistaken, its 5 for rm 1. plus its full of fishes goodness. and on way back, we also did stop at cherating, where we visited during the new year for some coconut juice and nasi goreng. we did try to get some fresh fishes at Sg.ular. but the fisherman says we are too late. instead we hear to the fisherman's story. on how life as a fisherman is not a guarentee to return everytime they set sail, and also how they find the fishes. with diving down the water, and they can hear where the fishes at and what kind of fish it is. amazing huh? but it does take years of trainning. my days end at 10pm where dinner at bukit tinggi for some steamboat.

Saturday, December 1, 2007


' julian...!' ' julian...!'..........hpw i wish they could just shut up for a while. its an quite akward night tonight. so meetin old frens.. some at party, some hitting the range, some just busy yelling or barking order. and for me? to be in all in the middle.

everyone wanting things their way.well at least they are fighting for it.. tho it might b unfair or might b dirty sometimes. but for people like me.. just a sigh.. and a deep breathe. adjusting to all their demands. sometimes i do wish, i will do the talking and they all do the listening.

the lonely bird that come visit me today, might know some answer or might understand how i might feel. i dono if its hurt or what, but it just seating there no matter how i try to chase it away.

the hot and windy day today is, does set in the mood. with just me listening to some blues guitar music heck shall i just say its just "brilliant". maybe the east cost wind blowing, tomorrow might it be at the beach or Pulau Duyong does have the sense of home, or emptynes.

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
twice as much aint twice as good
And can't sustain like a one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees
Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

i'll be home for christmas...

close your eyes and imagine...
u r in an philharmonic hall..
the curtain raise
the light at the hall turn blue
and the orchestra started to play, with the violin and piano playing
a spot light beam, to the tenor,
he was seating there alone
the conductor stop his orchestra..
and he sang......
I'm dreamin' tonight of a place I love
Even more then I usually do
And although I know it's a long road back
I promise you....
i quote a mother sayin " i like to wish my family a very merry christmas to my family and my daughter especially, Madison who will be 4 this year, am gonna miss opening up present with her,watch her face, and seeing her face on chirismas morning and watch her experience the new experience that christmas bring."
christmas is not only about the year end sale, the gift, the trees. its about getting togather. as one, as a family. its that special time of the year where everyone gather togather. its the same like Chinese New Year, where everyone will b back for the eve dinner. other than the religious expect that we are celebrating the birth of Christ, its who that u spend your christmas is important. its time to rekindle the relationship between family or those who are near to your heart. thus... i'll be home for christmas... lets make it a white christmas.a special one. as we might not know who we will be celebrating christmas with the following year. although.. a same line up and same faces will be delightful..
in the spirit of the holiday, am wishing everyone well, and have all the blessing in the world for in everything they do, and they will find God's grace in every mistake.and everyone will give more then they take from this world. So, do warm the whole world with the smile on your face whenever things go wrong, it doesn't matter if u don have a straight teeth or a gap in your teeth, what matters most is it comes from the heart...

Tuesday, November 27, 2007


looking for the perfect christmas song for the holiday season which is coming real soon?well, try this album by Josh Groban, was released on Oct 09, 2007. so its not an OLD MAN song. and Josh Groban is still alive. Just in case if some might think the song is OLD.

btw.. it was produced by David Foster, one of the best producer in the business.. so its hard to hate this album. the album featured those classic christmas song like...silent night,i'll be home for christmas to name a few.. it also featured some duet with some of the world best talent like faith hill for the song " the first noel" and with brian Mcknight for "Angels We Have Heard On High"

the album "noel" is certainly would be great for those who will be in the holiday mood and will be looking forward to reunite with their family again. as the holiday season is coming... seasons greeting 2 everyone.God Bless..

Monday, November 26, 2007

my proud home

many people have some misconseption that is impossible for me not to go clubbing. why? because of all those clubbing place are just at my backyard. and am from KL.

but dear misunderstood people. yes i have been brought up in KL. in the capitol, fast busy town and the whole 9 yard. but i only moved to KL when i was 10. though majority of my growing up and most important stage are mostly in Kl, i don forget my days in a small town call kuala krai. the town is way smaller than any other town, let it b Taiping or Banting or Bukit Katil, Semabok, Cheras, or anywhere. and there not much development here. yes there are the basic infrastructure like market, school and all that, but they don have hypermarket like Tesco, Giant or stuff like that, and even its the home for the ONLY zoo in Kelantan, but its not as famous as the famous Zoo in Malaysia like Zoo Taiping or Zoo Negara.

but the amazing thing bout this place is the people. a small town where everyone know each other. everyone is so friendly and you feel safe. i mean during the days i was there.my parents can afford to NOT lock the door without getting broken in. the bond is so close that everyone is like family. the main economy here is timber and palm oil. but one of the famous son of Kuala Krai is the fashion designer, Zang Toi who design clothes for Ivana Trump, Sharon Stone, Eva Longoria, Debra Messing, Patti Labelle, Farrah Fawcett, Angela Bassett, and Fergie from the Black Eyed Peas to name a few.

and the star describe it as... :

MOST Malaysians would probably have heard of a town called Kuala Krai though perhaps they would not be able to place its exact location on the map. They may not be able to tell you much about the place unless they have some connection with Kelantan.
For those who live there, and for those who have moved to far-flung places such as Canada, Australia, UK and Indonesia, to name a few, the creation of a website dedicated to Kuala Krai helps them keep in touch with what has happened there over the years, and what the members are currently up to.
Members from around the globe remember times past, and seem to have particularly fond memories of the scrumptious Malaysian, especially Kelantanese, cuisine.
The site is regularly updated with news and articles that are of interest. Just now there is a piece about Zang Toi, who originated from Kuala Krai.
But, even while the members communicate remotely, there are plans afoot to meet up visually!

there are also a website dedicated to the town www.kualakrai.com

even am far away or no matter where i MIGHT be, a return there is always special.as i it keep my feet on the groud, and remind me to always be proud of the place where am from. so am just a boy from a lil town like all of u.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

stylo milo

ok excuse the vain moment.. a dinner where its ALL bout me *yes do the victory dance*...hahahaha.. yes the hair does fit like a hat.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

cloud before the rainbow

when u take thing a step at a time.. its much more less stressful that way. but i just cant help it, of weeks ahead and all the things that need to be done..it seems pack i suppose.. haih.. no time to rest
  1. 27th nov 2007 - malaysian study mid term
  2. 28th nov 2007 -electronics 2 lab
  3. 29th nov 2007 - digital logic mid term
  4. 30th nov 2007 -electronics 1st assignment's dateline
  5. 1-3rd dec 2007 -off to Terengganu
  6. 4th 2007 - rushed back to cyber for a 8 am tutorial
  7. 7th 2007 - digital logic lab
  8. 10th dec 2007- electronics 2 mid term

and i might add there are lectures and tutorial to do in between all of this. christmas shopping or any kinda of celebration shall be put on hold untill the 17th dec.and i will be singing..

Have yourself a merry little Christmas

Let your heart be light

From now on your troubles will be out of sight..

yes.. goodbye troubles...

happy thanksgiving

kanye west, speak his mind, won grammy

nelson madela, fight for his right, won nobel prize

Tun Mahathir, give critics-building critics, a nation's great leader

bono,fight for what he belief in, a nobel prize winner

some might just know, i'll just say whats on mind, even though it MIGHT offend. though i try to filter it as much as i could, and i am proud to say that i come a long way from having every sentence that out from my mouth is the F word. i din realize that i end every sentence the F word till my fren Gurdip but back then an enemy told me so. so as i retired using those words frequently, am glad to make my enemies as foes.... though some frens might already turn into the other side.but tonight is not the night for me to talk bout me..

so in the spirit of thanks giving, i would like to share one of my opinion.. that i keep for quite a while..






99% similarity..
i bring to you..

NOTE: photo edited by Wong Juen Jie. THIS is just a promotion of his photo editing skills and have no related to anyone dead or alive.thanks

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

don... forget to remember me...

well, i gues this song is one of those song that have lots and lots of meaning behind it..well, its suitable for all of us who leave our house and further to studies. let it be from KL to melaka, or vise versa, or to overseas or from where ever u are. the day when u leave the house, is one of the heaviest feeling u have, as you will wonder when is the next time u gonna be home as anthing is possible to happen. here's some part of the song that might be intersting

Here's a map and here's a Bible

If you ever lose your way

the map is a symbol if we are lost in the real world, and the bible is for when we are lost in spiritual kind of way. as we are out on our own.. we can easily forget who we are and what we belive in as there lots of influences outside

And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night

And even when it's not,

I tell her everything's alright

does this sound familiar? phone called normally made as we are far away and we might miss our parents or vice versa. even if we have lots of probs... we normally don tell them as we don want them to get worried, as parents love their child no matter its the golden child or the black sheep of the family

And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl

goin out and live on our own sometimes we feel we are already BIG. but in our parents eye, we are still their lil boy and girl, yes this might not sound as macho as some might hide their wannabe macho-ness, but that just dumb as everyone do need some sensitive spot too sometimes as everyone have FEELINGS.

and the most important thing of all... DON'T FORGET TO REMEMBER ME..........

and the plan is..

for the next 2 weeks, this week and the next one, will b busy, with assignment datelines, 3 labs and 2 mid term.. so the pressure is on i guess.

with time wasting time like ptptn document verification is such a stumbling block, and lecture like mr.janggut, who speak his own version of english doesn't seem to help matters too. slacking in class and need to play catch up is NOT a part of this sem's plan.

a section of electronics 2 that i don't seem to understand have made me a bit paranoid sometimes.and been pushing my button.pressure is NOT good. i guess i'll try play catch up this weekend.frustration is in the air.........

a chance to be a part of the malaysia a1 pit team this weekend also will b missed.. a chance of a lifetime.. and a trip to genting for the magic workshop tomorrow too will b missed, since i have lab and ptptn form to pass up. yup... frustration is definately in the air.

moonsoon cup!! maya karin!! terengganu, dec 1st...

Monday, November 19, 2007

the chins-happy b'day

they say age is just a number.well as we grow up, birthday is on of the day that we waited for all year round because there are parties and presents. but as we grow 40 plus, birthday might not be the day that we look forward too. as we getting older, and as US, being vain human being. always wanna look good. anyways while we are in our 20's or about to enter that stage, birthday is always a wonderful thing. wonderful day.

last weekend there are 2 birthdays. on saturday was CHIN wai luen and on sunday was Ashley CHIN. dono what the deal with this chin's lah... all in november wan, LOL. btw my wish for both CHINs is...

that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big,
your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold
Happy birthday!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

waiting for the world to change

power, everyone loved to be in control.but then again not everyone could. i mean if everyone are in control, who will b the follower?am sure we all sometime disagree on what our leader says, let it b political or family, or friends or working. am sure everyone have been in the situation when someone propose an idea, and yet u cant object it, and yet have just to accept it, whether u like it or not.

as we all would love it if things always goes our way,but the harsh reality is, ( well for ppl like me) the i revolve around the world and not the world revolve around me. well, that suck, when i don to follow ALL the time, adjusting to situation just will turn me into and unhappy camper.liking it or disliking it, its a total different matter, but sometimes leaving with no choice BUT to accept it, IS really frustrating. for example, if your boss asked u to do a task. u got no choice but to do it,let it be an assignment in a war torn country or to do something against ur belief, maybe its not as bad as murdering someone. but get the idea.

well for people like me, we'll waiting.. waiting for the world to change.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

heartbreaker logic

when i just about to love you.
why must u twist my mind?
in the split 2 hours,
u turn my world up side down
am confused
and mentally tortured
oh why oh why
digital logic design must u do this?
NOTE: digital logic design is a subject that am studying now, this have to reference to anyone dead or alive. thank you.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Ichi Rittoru no Namida

a lil teaser of what kinda of the Ichi Rittoru no Namida is, with the theme song like this... its heart breaking


to do NOTHING is to be NOTHING
our life is written by our actions not by pen
ask anyone, even small kids.. am sure they do have their dream of " nak jadi doktor, nak jadi peguam, nak jadi guru" i mean u can hear that everytime they are interviewed. from day 1 i guess they set their innocent mind to capture their dream or maybe its what their parents wants them to be.
studies are very important in life of a teen like me, who is crossing into adulthood.being in Uni is certainly different. sometimes u eat alone, sometimes u go class alone.well mayb that something almost everyone have to go thru. it MIGHT not b the very nice from the start as you are used to have friends all around you before this in school, but i guess you must make do on what u have.
my results here also is NOT the 1 that any parents could b proud of.yes i do go to class and attend my tutorial.but it don't really show on the result slip. every finals i face the same problem. which is i don do enough of practise on my tutorial as i feel really really feel that the question in the finals are somehow simliar to those that its in the tutorial or some extra homework or assignment.
although now am trying to do most of my tutorial and assignment, i still don't want to get carried away. i mean over-confidence could derail me. what i wan to do this semester is..... just to study 1 week ahead of the current syllbus because,well, i have lots to look forward to in mid december. so here i am.. gonna start on my assignment soon,as i don wanna be NOTHING so i wanna do SOMETHING to be SOMEONE. i do hope the Heavenly Father above hear my plea..

Monday, November 12, 2007

raise again

have you got a bad patch of time? when everthing goes wrong. where, when u just get sad, upset, angry, u get the idea. sometimes when u feel like when u about to lose faith, and go all negetive and its all end of the world?

people goes thru struggle in their life, but after any storm you'll see there's a rainbow at the end of the line. when u have peace in yourself, nobody can touch u no matter what.i really like this song because it convey a wonderful message to everyone that go thru hard time.

as i quote one of the song lyrics

They can say Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I won't face the ground,

I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,

Although they do try,

How to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all,

But I refuse to fall,

Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,

'Cause there's a light in me,

That shines brightly..

people can say anythin they want about u, but hey, when u just belive in yourself and don let them mess ur mind up, u will b untouchable

Q&A with Julian Gan

scenario: double income family,a person that requires constant supervision and care,so somebody has to take care of him/her. They aren't well off, but the lady is higher paid than the husband. Who should be the one to quit their job and why?

Sunday, November 11, 2007

sunday morning rain is pouring..

Its been very tiring and draining weekend. But today, a Sunday, which mean, am gonna be back tomorrow at cyber. For once, maybe THAT don sound so bad after all. Some escape or shelter, the 1 thing and 1 place where I can do what I wanted to do, the only place where people cant point finger at you and say, “hey its YOUR fault”. Well at LEAST I think that’s the place, but then again,who knows.

My day start at 10 today, its not so bad as Saturday morning, I mean I feel really really tired on Saturday morning as Friday was a bit tiring for me. Even if I slept at 530 am on Sunday morning and woke up at 10 am. Off to have breakfast with my family around the Lucky Garden area. I was thinking the market in every where we go do really shows the culture of a nation. Well, the morning market there had some of that features, the multination and multiracial people in our country where everyone live as one peacefully.

After breakfast and a stop at TMC. Got called from Vic Leong. The rich B (since she not reading this ) was at Shangi-La at 11 am? Oh well, maybe that’s how the rich parents celebrate their daughter’s home coming. Did not joined her at MV after that, because parents wanted to go to Bukit Bintang.

Bukit Bintang…..what can u think of when one says Bukit Bintang, the Low Yat plaza where you can get computer bargain and all the latest gadgets and gizmos… or Sungei Wang plaza (river money plaza) where well, u probably can find anything there. Almost anything. From fake i-pods to fake hp, to hooker, IF you look at the right time and the right dark corner, other than that there is the row of shop where Massages are offered, and people will harass you IF u walk down that road. And of course, the Bintang walk where all the glitz and glamour boutique and shops, maybe some sort of Rodeo drive in Tinsel Town.

Anyways, I was there to see my cousin’s wife to be, as the was in charge of the optical shop there. I’ve learned that optical business can be quite profiting, and profit from 800%! Imagine a lense for u r glasses was retailed about rm160 and and the shop bought it for rm20. but that again, it’s a tough industry as there are lot of optical shop around.

I also saw the Sungei Wang plaza, Full of shops that sell boots. And lots of the shoppers here too was wearing them. I feel weird. Maybe its in Malaysia, as the weather here is a bit too hot for boots. Boots from those knee high boots with or without chain, that look like those that wrestler’s wore, to the fluffy ones that make u look like u got a road killed on your feet. Well THIS might be fashion for them, those gothic and punk or what ever look. As their style it to look outstanding. Outstanding in a sense of looking unique, and stand out from above, as from my observation, there are those who wore sleeping sleeper, u know those with all the fluff, and once shop, the men staff HAVE to wear a baby blue tie with white shirt. because of the theme of the shop I guess. At the end of the day, maybe its just their style and mine might be different from them, as hard as I try to embrace and accept this kinda of style, I just cant help it but not to ignore those shops full of boots. Maybe different people have their own view on things. Maybe that’s the best explanation I can get so far.

After sungei wang plaza, had a lonely walk on the street, looking, just looking around. 1 weird thing is, seems like akon’s “sorry blame it on me its like following today, as everywhere I go the song is playing, from Parkson till the car radio.

Yup, that’s my Sunday, tough something still feel like missing..

Tuesday, November 6, 2007


once my old hse mate was into this girl den...

julian: why dont u go after her?
zl:you see, u just studying in MMU, the other guy also MMU but Manchester Metropolitan Uni, how to compete?

that really leave me speechless.i got nothing to say to that. do overseas degree is THAT good?
where do we draw the line?how do we compare which student is better?for example if u study law in overseas and u study law here in Malaysia, how do we compare which is the better lawyer? is it the money they earn? where do WE draw the line? we cant exactly compare how much people make as a symbol of success. i mean, if a janitor there earn about 1000punds, that is about rm 7000. and its not easy to earn that much here in Malaysia. but den again, that does not mean the janitor in overseas is better than some coperate figure in Malaysia that earn the same ammout of money right?

in the real meterialistic world, where money really speaks. which i find its really sad where REAL talent have been limited by their financial status.some might just b farmer's child, but what the best he/she can do?mayb the minority can make it big, but what about the rest?and on the other hand, those who don really pay attention in class, and skip school and just got credit for their spm, can further their study abroad, y? like i say money speaks. and supposedly, the education abroad is WAY better than local, thus the lazy slacker at secondary school now in overseas and maybe have a better future, but the farmer's children who work day and night working and studying their butt off, don really have a bright future as the slacker. is this fair? i really HATE when the situation is not fair and those who work their butt off don get their reward.

but who am i to cry out foul play.am just a university student with no power what so ever, who struggle himself to get the grade in a local uni. as i saw my cousin's stpm papers, its something like what i've learn. but why stpm is one of the hardest exam in the world?and do studying abroad is really that tough as good as some claimed? is it jsut the reputation that university aborad have since they have been there for long? or its just overated? i dono. because i am not lucky enough to get my chance to go abraod.guess all i can do now is to look forwarwd day by day and not dwell anymore of what could and should have been.and probably just follow where the flow brings me as am not so sure anymore what will i b next time. if those who study abroad is THAT good, well.. its good to hear and know,my wish is for them to serve the country and give back to the community and help our country to develop and NOT come back with a HUGE ego because of an overseas education.

Monday, November 5, 2007

manbai kau iilhamku

i think this song is a stroke of a genius.. superb lyric and accompanied by the wonderful guitar.this song stands out from the rest as it can be related to everyone. don matter if u r chinese with the canto pop or indian with the bolloywood or malay with nasyid. asked everyone on the street. i bet most ppl have heard and fall in love with the song.


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Sunday, November 4, 2007

my hols...

before hols

during hols
the garden

traditional kueh

how the kueh was made, authentic

Saturday, November 3, 2007


me with bee from bee movie
flamboyant prefect,noorul

allen tracy

after our high school years, most of us go our different way. eventhough some MIGHT got to the same collage or university, but still lots have gone thier own way, chasing what they dream of, what they wannabe next time. its SAD not to see those familiar faces that u see every morning for the past 5 years or so.

as times goes on.. gap might occur, as we all have new friends in university or in collage. with that, personality DO change too, it might be a lil or might b lots.

i met up with my frens last saturday. its been quite a while since i see all of them. raja,hema,dena,ranpreet, parisha, gurdip.its a nice touch that we still can lepak again, for example like hema, we din not see her for the past 2 years or so.

listening to some of them talking bout neurons, do make me think what the others do right now. what are they doin? studying?working? marry mayb? i know one of my friend since primary but we got drifted in secondary now is in the US army, finally realising his dream to be US army. and another flamboyant prefect, well...... i don really know what he but an elvis coustume and a colorful hair taking part in a burger making competion. and some pursuing their dream in the performing arts.and some having a luxurious life new zealand.and some might still be grieving upon the death of a grand uncle, the local casino magnate. there also some those in med school, busineess school,law school and form 6. its good to hear that everyone is doing fine, and having their success.

even though we make new friends, those old one shall not be forgotten.. as we all will meet again in 1 sweet day.

Sunday, October 28, 2007


song and its music video have a lot in common, a music video shows US the listener, what the song is trying to convey. i belive that every songs have their own meaning, encrypted in the tune and cords of the composer and also the writer.

well, this song, "home" originally by michael buble,have captured my heart from the first time i've heard it. it goes down to one of my favourite song of all and i can never b bored listening to it.

this song connected to me personally with being far from home for the past 2 years. for me,like this songs, it says no matter where i can be, but my heart still is at home, why? because all my love one and the people that i care the most is at there.the feeling of being home after so so long not home, is just like the video here, when the father greets her daughter.

Maybe surrounded byA million people

IStill feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

i guss this line in the song too have carry lots of weight for me.i always missing that someone when ever am away and even if am surrounded by friends or family, there always be a missing puzzle a sense of emptyness.

And I know just why you could not comealong with me'

Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

though i wanted her to stay in Malaysia, but its her dream to further her studies in the UK.thus i always belive that she will get a good education over there and a very bright future.

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all rightI’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

i wish to hear this, at the end of the 3 years.. when she finally returns for good i hope.

each songs have a certain meaning to each individual, it mightn be the same song but it might be a diffrent meaning to others.


its been awhile since i've blogged.here i am in this cold chilly night bloggin again. the chill of tonight go thru various depth. way deeper than the skin.

other than spending my time bumming in front of talking box people call tv, i been thru gun rounds of critics been thrown at me. its not very pleasent to received critics, i don like it, and i don think anybody likes it as well. especially after putting so much into it, i've been told i try too hard.was crushed, the feeling of not being appreciated runs all over me, but yet i try again and again.

someone once told me, "you're good at influencing others" tho he might be joking or he means influence to do bad stuff like unleash the devil in others. but tonight i think he was wrong. i don influence others, how can i influence others when i cant get my point across.

being miunderstood MOST of the time no matter where i go to, i really wanted people to look from the view to see things from my view.but i suppose tonight shows me that i cant make people to look from my view or understand what i am trying to say. i admit my poor usage of the english language, might be the cause that don explain things properly.but den again, i cant FORCE others to look from my view or make others to do wat i do.acceptence after all, depends on the wilingness of others.

all this have back fired on me.it cause more trouble, tho the original plan was to minimize the trouble.guess running my mouth and telling what i wanted or how i think, its not very wise if it cause so many trouble.thus i gotta to swallow what i belive in, or forget wat i wanted for the happiness of others.keeping my silent encrypted inside,maybe this is my omerta, my code of silence.to keep myself out of trouble. and i all i can do it have HOPE while i am waiting in my silence.hoping for the world to change. for others to forget the "me" in themself,and try to understand.

Friday, October 19, 2007

UN's Convention on the Rights of The Child (CRC)

In conjunction with Universal Children's Day on Nov 20, would like to ask some opnion from you all bout this:

Article 12
You have the right to give your opinion, and for adults to listen and take it seriously


Wednesday, October 17, 2007

julian's 3

ok fine.. mayb the title is not so like ocean's 13 or something and its not bout robbing bank..

yesterday i decided to call my close fren,me rizal and amar to hang out since, its rare that v have the chance,and its been a while since we all go out, hang out. we went to mid v around lunch time, me, amar, rizal and mrs. rizal, denny or dani. cant spell her name.

we decided to have lunch at lil penang, coz thats the last time me amar and rizal met. during lunch we talk and talk and talk, bout wats happening, more like a catch up with everyone. finallly the 3 set of devils curry arrived to the SOS call of my tummy.

after lunch we kinda confused on where to go.. i mean, its kinda boring. we tried the bowling..glow in the dark and a perfect place to be raped, but it was jam packed full according to them, as i was on a long distant call to the Uk. we decided to catch a movie instead, sleepy and boring show...resident evil. i slept thru the movie.

after the movie, we decided to take a walk to the garden. but its all too classy for us. its crazy expensive there. so decided to go dinner..at first was mamak at bangsar,somehow turn into chillis at mid V.

the lesson that learnt at chillis is... if u go there, just order ONCE!!

i mean when i look at the bill..

at first we ordered drinks and a set of triple play and a classic nachos. due to the beautifully fried chciken crispers.. we order again, after that order arrived, we decided to add another quessedilla chicken. we been taxed 3 times!!!! the 2 time addictional tax is about 30 bux due to the chicken crisppers and quesdilla chicken!

but its all good since rizal and mrs rizal paid for the bill... hhahahhaa... we took turns though, amar paid for lunch and i paid for the movies. its fun since they are not too calculative. and being able to talk more open on things.

Friday, October 12, 2007

my name is julian

have u ever gone thru the days and wonder why u r life sux? maybe u done lots of bad things in the past and karma now is biting ur butt BAD..? hi my name is julian..

sometimes i do wonder y things in life in my life particularly, have not been my way. the way i wanted it to be. i mean what i really wanted i rarely have it.mayb some would think.. m ungretful. but does anybody know what i really really wanted? anyone?anybody at all? even though those who knows will like " sorry, i would love to but i cant"

maybe mayb i ask for too much?but come to think again, i don really ask for lots of thing. mayb a thing or two?it might seems a lot but i keep on repeating the same thing... for example, i only wan success and blessing from God.. i do work hard too... but still.. do i get the thing i wanted?the results? but there things too i asked from peoples.... and yet....sigh

i do too wonder what hav i done wrong?hav i wronged anyone? and that person put a cursed on me of somethin? what? what that i have done wrong? i mean major things that i dono, feel cursed sometimes..

Thursday, October 11, 2007

when priority calls..

in life, you have to have priority. we have to set them. it might not apply to some people, but for me,personally it does.i used to be very very carefree. and just don care, bout pratically anything. but i guess as times goes, responsiblity too come hand in hand. maybe being carefree was nice,breaking school rule, having just laugh away and don really care about anything or anyone. but at some point of my life so far, thing change. i choose to took up my responsiblity, and hoping it will guide me to be a man next time in the future, a man who contributes to life.

slowly i learnt, "there's no ME, instead its WE, its US" it does help me to shed of my sefishnes. and right now my number 1 priority is my family, and ashley is considered as one of them. they will be number 1, even infront of myself. i choose to put them first because, they do play a very big and important role in my life.

today i got a phone call from my dad.he wanted to go back, because grandma is not at her best condition. its my grandma on my mom's side. thus, mom have not have enough of goodnight sleep, even though she visited her for 2 weeks, and yet things don change. but dad's plan to go back at the end of this month have been rejected. when i called up my mom, she said "if she close her eyes earlier how?don think she will last so long, so saturday morning we going back". i left speechless..

i don mind going back, but the thing is i've applied for a part time job to fund my trip to UK, and they do gave me the job. as family comes first,i've decided to turned down the job. the people there is not very happy, as they needed me to cover for the RAYA period. i do feel bad as i already tell them yes when they call last week. but family always comes first, so i guess i've have to gave up the job and maybe find some other alternative to earn some cash. maybe some other time.

the situation is not very cheerful,as everyone is worried, but the one silver lining i could see is everyone got togather and all those family conflict was pushed aside for this critical period.

am packing my back for saturday... full of black and white clothes i guess...

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

malaysia boleh

havent been sleeping for the past 24 hours.. been at library since noon on tuesday till 630 am on wednesday.... and with just an hour of sleep, and having exam at 9 is not really comfortable,but i guess am determint to NOT let all ,my hard work on the day before to go to waste. am gretful too, especially to one of my fren, yee kean who really spend the night helping me out A lOT..there others too.. that spend the night in group studies...thus i wanna take the chance to thank everyone.

one thing that happened to me just now or today is when i saw the 1st malaysian to outer space. i heard lots of critic that our man is just like a tourist. but when i watch the live show on tv,found that he is gonna do some medical research, if am not mistaken,and its about cancer. unlike some critic that would say otherwise. with the rendang and all the traditional food at first i tought it was a joke,there also the race issue that y must be a malay to go up there first, instaed of chinese or indian?

all those it seems no a question no more when i saw the launch. it made me moved.i mean all those doubt, and races and food issue are all gone and answered.when the commentator says the pride of the nation on the left hand of the our man, yes the pride of the nation, jalur gemilang. thus the answer for the race, i realize that its not really important as we are "bangsa malaysia" thus its NOT important if its malay,chinese or indian. the food, its a good way to introduce Malaysia to the world.

the flying mission to sent our first man to space, which i first tought it was rubbish considering we could use the money for social welfare or development, now seems to make sense after seeing dr.syiekh in the space shuttle flying our flag, does mean a lot to me personally. the feeling just struck me at tat moment,and am sure it draws lots of inspiration to other malaysian too... am proud of our country. "Melaysiaku, gemilang"

Monday, October 8, 2007


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unpleasent nap

i woke up just now.. to the sound of gun shot?monkey shouting? and some chinese ballad playing? i tot i was in a nightmare, but i was wrong. i dono that Malaysia now its like Lebanon that u wake up to gun shot, or cyber jaya have gone back to the days where it was still a jungle, and there is a skinny hairy monkey shouting around, or was in Taiwan, with Jay chau song playin.

was not really pleased with the way i was woken up, seriously who would wanna get up with a monkey shouting "fuck" and "ahahahahaa" or gun shot from a game or counter strike? my idea of a good waking up is, someone telling "still got unfinish business to do" or a kiss from a lovely person with the birds singing outside my window.

i choose NOT to fight FIRE with FIRE. even if i have the equipment to do so.i learnt the lesson from melaka,where i outblast my room mate's speaker as he was too noisy. the different was obvious, but that time, was a year ago, i was young, i wan naive to fight fire with fire. i choose to ignore this time. sometimes, walking away is the best thing to do.

sometimes.. yes we might be smart in our education, but how about some consideration to others comfort? as we live NOT alone.. in this world, or this neighbourhood. yes we have the right to make noise IF... we live alone in a 100 arches of land. and nobody in between 100 kilometer radius from us.

i do belive education is NOT everything in this world, never doubt the fact that it is important.but manners too. other than acedemic knowledge, there lots of kinda of knowledge that we need to know, like general knowledge, or basic table manners, or maybe some or mayb most of us might not be groom into a british gentleman, like james bond, but still the basic we need to know to get along in this world. being considerate is one that we need to learnt as we don live in a cave or in the cyber world. we live in a REAL world, where REAL gun do KILLS.where tears are shed instead of an emoticon. and real frens are made instead of some ppl of friendster who just want to know some hot chic.

but who am i to tell what to say about manners, its for everyone's parents to teach us whats basic. let our parents be a garbage collecter, a descpline teacher, a normal teacher or a CEO, it doesn't matter from which level of society that U come from.the level of manners reflect on who we are and where we come from, it does give bad names to our parents when we misbehave, the harsh reality of life is, people DO judge.how u present yourself, how u behave yourself. but i guess lack of parental guidance do reflect sometimes, and i guess this is what they call.. " kurang ajar"

p/s: before getting emotional and getting angry, think bout it, would u like to be waken up by noises while havin a nice nap after burning a midnight oil?do consider, people like me, don have the gift, to do well, thus, need to wake up early to prepare to study.