If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
will be counting down the days.. cant wait!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
- force myself out of bed (easy because slept early)
- see doctor ( hard, doctor here expensive lah)
- ask kean for lab report
- TRY to eat SOMETHING
- try to turn down Melaka trip to spend some family time. (kena bodek for new shoes and mayb tennis racquet)
- scout for... MATA fair (5th sept! :D )
pic's from emi's FB.
take me on a trip i would like to go someday
take me to New York
i would like to see L A..
the other day at lab, on 20082008. was suprised to meet her. gather myself to talk to her. i don't know whats wrong, but somehow i stumble my words and make a complete fool out of myself. normally, a girl like her wont make me feel nervous or anything, somehow, she did. nothing special really, except for that sugarly sweet smile. of course that should be forgotten as a mere infactuation.
that last night at manila i went dinner.at chicken Max i think. their version of nandos/chillis i suppose. the person i had dinner with, asked a weird question, throwing a curve ball. she asked " have u considered dating someone my type?"
but somehow,i gotta do what is best for me, maybe i just don belong in the land of lovie debie YET.. i gotta go my own way..
on a brighter note, the weekend was a good one.
start from sat,
its been a while since i could get up whenever i feel like. exams, revision, morning classes, etc.... and best part of all, mom din not nag me up from my bed. ahh..... such joy! even the house work just both of them do. since both of my siblings are at work. feels good to b the only child sometimes. till, around 11 ish.. uncle Teo, ask for lunch. and to my suprise it was at satay Kajang ( hj samuri) in Bukit Tinggi. a big grin on my face. see, peacock, you COULD have satay if only u come here :P
lunch was more like getting to know the people from the warehouse. my personal opinion is, its good to have lunch and invite them along, although for some it might not be "glamorous". yes they might work hard in the warehouse doing all the dirty job, but hey, without them production don't happen do they? there also David, the engineer, bro's good fren from his Uniten day. as Puasa month is coming, and of course they still HAVE to work, a simple lunch to show some appreciation and some mingling session a lil, will bring more good than harm if there is any. i got to know that most of them are Kelantanese. am not sure how it is done in other state, but somehow we kelantanese just click. the interesting part is some of them are from the area when drugs are almost in every family, because that area is bordering Thailand, thus is such a problematic area. so with them being able to get out of there and find work, i guess they will work doubly hard to help out their family.
after lunch was Jusco. to get cookbook for Pei se, and to fix my badminton racquet. apparently there is a football match that night. a cup final between Kedah and Selangor. knowing Kedah would be playing, i know uncle Nazri would be in town.
he must be really proud of his team: kedah. after all he is their advisor.
my entertainment for the evening. not bad, can play Leonna Lewis bleeding love and sean kingston's beautiful girl.not feelin that good i just seat down and watch the olmypics. apparently that 2 kinda close from the day they are at JB.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
what and how we define love? yes the boy and girl punya relationship. is it that feeling of some say ultimate hapiness that one cant feel, if they are not involve in a relationship before? is it the hundred heart beat per second everytime he/she is around? or the manja-ness that she possess trying to convince you everytime you don't want to do something for her, or the macho-ness of him, that deep voice and the gentleman-ness with the 6 packs? huah that talk about, its wasting time when get involve, or is not a mature thing to do, because u are a student.
its good to see, people around me, getting back into a relationship, their lips is @ their ear everytime being kacau, by their other half, for some, they blushed as red as a baboon butt, and for some, in particular peaCock Jin case, there are no more " super emo mode". people change when they have "someone" they will probably think of others more, which is a good sign.
it make me smile, and feel happy for all of them, and for those that who are still trying, well, like the saying goes in football matches, "its not over till the fat lady sings" or "its not over till the last whistle been blown"
back to the topic of love. other than it have lots of plus point, sometimes as everything else in the world it have its negative sides too.well, some might try too hard to get themself involve,in other words, sign of desperation, some change their other half more than they ever bought new underpants, till they are totally lost their direction of what is really love is, but then again, it is such a subjective topic, some would fall for money, looks, boobs, etc..
k la, enough talking about ppl.its a bad karma.
talking bout myself, well when i said am a shy guy. the normal respond " huh?! you shy ar?"
well, at certain place, or condition, i could be shy and really quiet.thinking back that, i hardly talk to any girls back at primary. and if the "hot" girl speak to me, it probably make my week, or day.but now, how thing have change, talking to girls is a daily thing, though no hot one :P having a couple of ex's, not as many as some would assume, have teach me a thing or two, oh wait.. a LOT. in a nutshell, it shows that am not really ready to b in a relationship. 3 years of non-stop having a relationship, these 3-4 months of not getting involve with anyone, give me time to think and reflect again. that i have lots of flaws, that i've still need to work on. of course there are lots that gave advice " its trial and error" or "you are young, go play around". according to Jess simpson, " you once fall in love twice and get your heart broken once"
heart breaking or broken is not a very nice thing. seriously.as much as i would like to be as heartless bastard as ever.still, mayb yi ling is right about SNAG( sensitive new age guy),yes that don't buy the hot chic that you see in the magazine, and the close you can get to those girls are probably the "best fren" that they go to, everytime they have some probs, and once they are "heal" they are off to those hardcore, rockers, bad boy that are ready to break their heart. don ask me why, but girls do fall for bad boys more than the good one, probably the sense of excitement? go read cleo lah.. for more details.
for those who are still waiting or totally close the door about getting involve, due to some bad past experience,i'll say..
yes its celine's song.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
it just strike me, there are all or most of the people around me, or my friends have grown/ changed A LOT! some change to the worst, but most change to the better, but come to think about it, who am i to say if they change to the worst rite? ( sorry lah.. people don't like to take critics)
looking at emilia who last time being pampered. dont even want to peel prawn herself, sigh.. though we hardly meet, unless there are company/family function or holiday,but she cant hide her pampered-ness, now probably staying in India by herself, tought her to be more independent, haih.. orang jadi doctor, mesti lah.
browsing thru Facebook, also saw my classmate during highschool, and how they are now more "vain" , ok la.. look after themself and how they look. instead of the normal, jeans and T. and make up etc, mayb its been a long time since i met lots of them. its pretty uncomfortable at first, as i prefer the "natural" look, but come to think of it again, hey, they are growing up, of course they will get into all these, thus, keeping and open mind, instead of the old judgemental. hope that mindset could last though.
flashback to school days, where when u talk 2 the normal girl or the not so called hot one, for sure your guy frens will give u lots of sticks " wtf lah.. that girl so ugly/fat you also talk, you like her isit? " come to think of it, its just plain dumb, but oh well, we are all young and make some stupid thing before, though some still will be picky, who they want to go for a drink with, mayb they are still vain, and mind who they are seen with. but personally, i just don't care anymore, of course will b nice lah, if u are spotted with some hot chic, and all the head will b turning when u walk pass with her, but a good company is not all about the look, its more like how comfortable you are with that person. can b some good ole frens for catching up, also some new fren, that u just click with.
so i was planing 3 hours for wheng and 3 for pei ling, and i go back at 8 to catch the fireworks.but the journey to kl was delayed due waiting for the train and, and my 2 p.m appointment was pushed to 3, and luckily she sent her bro to P.j and i've arrived before.
met at toys r us. i was wondering who is this girl in the Chanel glasses and Prada handbag,while i was looking at Lego, (long time din meet, tak kenal sudah :P) was wheng.i dono if its the 3-4 inch heels or she just grown taller. had a drink @ delicious as coffee bean was full.
i find that she have come a LONG way. staying alone in London, does teach her the HARD life.eating at home, cook, and spend her money wisely, for the food and stuff, and not for entertainment like clubs, as her spending there was tight. although now doin intership with Ernest and Young, and behind the big spending on stuff like her sunglass, still can mantain a first class doin acturual science ( dono the spelling lah), that shows that not all that spend money don't know how to think and go just to waste their parents money. though there are a LOT of spectic out there says, those who stay in posh area ONLY know how to enjoy themself and not study.
as she have to leave at 430, right on time, Pei Ling is waiting in the car. after saying goodbye, her car is already waiting outside the door. great timing. so off we went to mid valley :D
tought of getting my gift.. but we end up watching movie.. this time at the gsc signature. first time at such a posh cinema, we or just me act like some jakun, but the place is really nice and the seat was just TOO comfy, worth the rm 20, if you don't want to line up for lines and sekali-sekala only lah.. if everytime means pokai already. there are only 3 collum in the cinema, and you can practically stretch your legs, and have food delivered into the cinema.talking about service.
she says i suppose to be lucky because she don't/rare to go out with guys alone
after a hungry tummy, was planning to go to Tenpanyaki, till.. i saw the sign, "spagethi grill", which remind me about sin yen's friendster page that i saw this morning, and i have my craving for meatball speg, 2days ago satisfied :D
though i got a STRONG feeling that it is run under the same company as chillies, first the color of the sign is the same red, green, the drink menu is the same, and also the price, the cup, the cutleries.
putrajaya international firework competition.. tonight was team china, not bad i have to say. after a tiring day its time for bed..
P/s: for you who say i have a bad taste for chic last nite @ tar chong, which is still unjustified, i beg to differ, as one of my highschool crush, is now is SIA being a flight attendence, and as we all know their flight attendence is way better than MAS's. and no they don need to get laid to b a stewardest. they can still be a virgin and still look damn good. *damn am hitting a lot below the belt tonight* thank you and good nite.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
exams in few hours and have 200++ slides and lee chong wei is playing at 630. wtf am doin blogging?! and listening to gwen stef? sleepy lah.. slept reading the first chapter. die lor..
- choice one, was HK with vic leong and her friends for christmas. yes vicki am still considering
- senioring for year end camp. got the invite to senior-ing for Kajang camp this weekend, apa nak buat ada exam. well i missed on year end that time in melaka, and gave my place to madeline. no fair they go river rafting. and last year was in Gua Musang, let those city kids have a taste of life outside the city.. muahahaha.. oh well.. this year not sure yet.. depends on if mel, ah cheong and cav if they can make it.
- cork's worlds? the less likely one.. although the idea of ireland, and celebrating new year with miku and all don sound that bad after all :p
well, maybe i will b in class instead of those choices. spending christmas with family. the lecture of " no matter how busy you are, everyone MUST gather togather for christmas" will be out. as the saying goes... expect the unexpected. so what ever happen in dec, or what ever i gonna do in dec.. who knows...
back to studies..
first, i was on the flight to Manila i was asked, what else do i do in MMU. i say, kickboxing. i would understand if a club would want its member to stay around for a long run, BUT, do it the right way, not bad mouth about the other club, sigh... so i dont really talk much as i was the junior over there and i will be around them for weeks.
today, the girl, the dude who bad mouth's gf, come out to me and ask me to come to training, i explain that i have exam, and kickboxing. she still insisting. haih..
am sorry if the land that you come from the people still live with cow, and probably never heard of the chinese saying that "hapiness wont come with force" , with is SO true. i mean, why would u do something and put your heart into that when you are forced to it right?
probably this IS the problem with your members leaving.you all think you all area very good at talking, thus u all try to play mind games and reverse phychology.. that probably works for those weak ones, yes, i've been listening to their complains. but, i won't and NEVER buy your game for a single bit. i wont feel bad. instead i wont feel anything. i hope tonight i've already sent the msg that yes i hope u know where is my priority are, and there is no need for you to lobby around for me to attend your training. my priority? my studies and if i've have to choose, i've choose kickboxing. the way you approach is never convincing anyways, mayb thats why you never break from the perliminary rounds.
and yes, i HAVE a life. am not the one saying.." i cant imagine my uni life without voices" , when someone says that, it not touching to hear for me personally, sorry, the soft and mushy-ness is out, and come in with the new bitterness. i think its shows how lifeless you are, get a lifee, there are more to do other than cling your life to the club.
i would prefer a president like alan, instead of kevin, i would prefer to follow someone like yi han rather than andrew. of course the odds on andrew to get a girl laid, and yi han is quiet, but what kinda of example is that? and of course i would prefer to listen to Kru's lame joke rather than listening to Tate barking.
so you've crossed the line, never ever asked me to set my priorities, especially you, probably the last person ever who qualified to tell that to me. get out of my face. and stop lobbying around.
test was screw up. badly. seriously. getting half mark is already like getting the full mark. went kickboxing. since nobody show up, karen was my partner.being moody, pissed off with that bitch that cling around for attendence, karen's sam pat-ness and sin yen's blur-ness does make me laugh a lil.something that i dono was putrajaya having its annual firework competition now according to sin yen. got wack in the head before that during exchanging of punches with karen, to the side of the eye, that explains my blur vision now and to the rib, was mostly my fault, i found myself dreaming. even when Anis, wanted me to show the demo, i was blur and forgotten the moves. mostly coz my mind was on the exam and probably eye was looking at elaine at the other side of the hall. don't get ideas. it just because she remind of cav. knowing cav took up body combat, which is similar to kick boxing after telling her my syok-ness during kickboxing class. and now at uni she also just joined the debate club.good thing she enjoyed it.
time to bathe, and probably sleep for the class tomorrow.. nite..
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
love is in the air around here in cyber. peacock jin finally found his chic after a long search, dude cant stop smiling, and some just have a mutual understanding * cough bird cough cough*, and probably in the dark, some just gathering the courage.
after coming back from Manila, lots say i have changed, with that there are also a few speculation, if i've found a new someone or a new target to go for. even to the extend of the parents and cousins asking. well... the answer is.. plain NO. let it b anyone from any part of the world, the new friends that i have met, or the old one. well, all are JUST frens. hope that clears thing up.
i've realise that there are lots of things that i have to work on myself first. yes there are some of my frens asking, " go play around first lah.. you still young", to be honest, that did crossed my mind. but, i cant get, or just bring myself to be a heartbreaker. maybe for some, they can find a new gf/bf in just matter of weeks or months after breaking up,but it just don't work like that for me, to say am fussy, am not, because i don't limit my choices with lots of citeria. but at the same time, i don't even what i want in a other half. so guess this is what is right for me, being single but not available. yes, i got a lot of those " you'll find someone better" , but for me, everyone have their plus point so...
Monday, August 11, 2008
probably the best roti kosong @ pandamaran, when u have 3 table and 6 fella making roti kosong ONLY!
after visiting "home"- mid v
at night.. got a suprise visit form............
Thursday, August 7, 2008
so my dad woke me up from my beauty sleep on my comfortable bed that i can never get enough of. asking me if i want to go to the bank with him. ( unless there are cash transfer to your own account, why go right?) wrong! just the tought of spending some time with him.
for lunch he ask me to decide what i want to eat.well nasi briayani king was on the mind. but he kinda hinted bak kut teh. so i said bak kut teh. he doubly asked me again if am sure.
oh well, not that i cant eat bak kut teh, and at the same time, not like you and me cant murder someone right? just take a knife and stabe that person. just that i dont really fancy it, but if you were to visit and craving for it, sure, i could be a good host.
anyways, the pork, the babi, is crazy lots.. thus kena force to order extra rice to down the rest of the meat.
you see, the anology here is, vodka=the meat and the rice = the mixer. if you were to down the vodka only,of course u can, if, u r a good drinker, ibut if u r not, and prefer to lower down the strong taste of the vodka, u add the mixer right? maybe it be sprite,orange juice etc..
so there u go, to lower down the taste of the bak kut teh, add more rice!
your fav song neh? singing the song with ur ascent, does sound really adorable. bet you will sing it all the time when you are out with ur frens around the street of tokyo koreoke hopping. still remember how good you look that night, with that dress and still remember u showing off u r killer heels (to show that u are taller ) :p ,having our cocktail and with u and this song.
who are we kidding right? being miles apart, guess i wont be seeing you again, because i wont be going to Cork, for new year. because, i know my education is above everything. though, its kinda obvious u taking over from Toshi, guess you will be there huh?
so all remains JUST memories.... hope you doing well in Stanley Morgan.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
addicted to cerita cina.... and...
watching the video, you can see the girl, Sheung Joi Sum and later on, obviously her bf, the one that gave her the flower, Alfred. and the middle of the video, around the 2nd minute, u can see that bastard is having an affair.
of course, that other girl is a stewardess and all, and wont mind having an affair. but really, if you have someone like Joi Sum, what else you would u ask for? a woman who have her own carrer, which mean will give u space, and at the same time, will make effort to be around you. and she is CUTE!
Monday, August 4, 2008
met up with a "sworn" enemy. the one that only stop me from applying from the homestay program, in Japan. as she is in charge for it. actually i got no probs with her, it just a chain effect.
oh well, i got a "chip up on my shoulder"as some upper crust society. which is some high fancy english that i won't understand, and make me google for it to know. oh well... basically it means for low kedai kopi, with the legs on the chair people like me, " suka cari gaduh".
Saturday, August 2, 2008
i did noticed the trend of, things turn out the opposite whenver i type something online. for example the previous post, about 30 mins to class, i slept off! and n i just type " i b catching some sleep after lacking of sleep" in FB, and look at where am i now!! its almost 3 and am still awake, after sleeping like from 9 pm. peacock gonna kill me for not waking up later.
it just that, sometimes, or in my case, there are lots there i need keep it to myself. just so, things don't turn it the other way, which is to the bad. though this post sound like a bit on the emo side, and me listening to sad ass song. *self reminder* * your are a cold hearted,bastard with no feeling whatsoever where the mentality of "fuck you" for those who gets in your way, and "fuck,i don care who you are, or where you are from, i don give a damn, i want this more than you", if should i something* do the chant * cold hearted, cold hearted, cold hearted, cold hearted* why? because i've been stabbed and spit out.
so to quit or not to quit, THATS the question.
but to a more "U" rating post...
the city,maybe just pasig area
astoria plaza (the hotel)
key to your heart? no just the door and..
this! its a massive room
the "other side" of the town
its in the airport
and the uni tag booard
mode of transport
the world famous jeep-ney
they actually rent the whole thing for us
contradiction-they show this at the subway station
and practice this, gender segragation
donuts craze is everywhere huh?
jolibee,cant leave philipines without it.
words says a million expression..
"starbake" because m broke
angel's their version of ramli
3 ringgit for a footlong! and 2 ringgit for 2 hamburger!
this + hammer to smash it all up, and sautey it
= sisig, -its everywhere around philipines.
those Atteneo ppl sure fancy, fancy places.
good food not some CHINESE food, no offense but am sure everyone agree the chinese food at prom was... *cough cough* chinese food will only be great at chinese restaurant NOT hotel!
am sorry, i only go to club Via "VIP" and nothing less :P
pre-autral kickoff party, can imagine what the real one offer?
great enterence too
a more proper like one, for him and her
sorry alex, i kinda cheated by pouring some to the floor. mayb in pure next time c u?
even during dinner.. haih.. in-d
boat race- hahaha those white trash wanker from monash LOST!
while they singing "betcha golly wow" -the emo-ness is in the air... thus
everyone have a flaming drink
flaming "blow-job" - no joke
mine! just like the heart, blue,bitter, and cold!
and when you drink too much... so much for someone who have "strong" principal- pathetic!