If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Dear friends,

When things comes to an end, its the start of a new beginning. We experience it ourself, when at the end of our kindergarten, primary, and even in secondary. Now its time for the end of their university life for some. Well, life is too short to be all emo and sad. At the end of the day, each of us have our own path to follow, our own route, God have already have plan for each of us. All of us are our own unique individual and we like different things.

Reality bites, and its time to move on but we should also keep those good time and do sent our occasional "hi" the truth is, when we are apart from each other, the gap and time sometimes separate us, and there won't be much topic to talk to each other anymore, not as much as before.

There are a lot kind of friend that we are going to make, some end up being the most person we hate, and some will be the one to be our best man. We can't keep them all as much as we like it,


                                         There are some of good friend that will always be in our heart

                    Some we already made our appointment months ahead to meet up once they are back

                                            Some that we catch up on the net and visit occasionally

                                          While other would call us up as soon as they come back

          But there are some also we once share a brief good memory without knowing where they are today

                                     And those good friends who proceed to their own path

Some that we did not have the chance to meet up, but there are still technology like the cellphone and internet as long as there is a will to catch up

                                As we give our goodbye hug, and promise to write to each other

                                                 Friends are leaving on a jet plane

                                                             Some tears might fall

But we should be happy for them, as they are leaving to seek what they wanted.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

the sinking ship

There are lots of videos, blogs links and 'like' on FB giving out negative feedback on the country recently. If these are the so called grass root of our nation, am sorry but the 'One Malaysia' concept seems like a sinking ship. The concept coined by our prime minister seems ideal enough to a multicultural nation like us, but sadly I feel it will take years for it to materialise.

If we look at the US for example, how Martin Luther King fights for equal rights especially the level of racism around that time is quite high, now years and generations later only we see that all the effort, by Dr King, can be said as a success as President Obama be the first black president. Sad to say, here our people are still half baked. we see our self by our skin color not as a Malaysian. There are lots that need overhauling for example certain people ambition failed ambition to be Prime Minister, some wrote and crap a lot of stories without concrete evidence thus lead to hiding, certain politican are just too extreme. If we look at the video of the dewan rakyat preceeding, sometimes its a joke how instead of implementing and discussing issues that would benefit the country, they would waste their time on personal attack on each other. Again if we look at the US, how a Hillary Clinton and Obama could work together and how the Republican and Democrats would agree on certain Bill for example the current Health Bill.  They work for the benefit of their people, and if the lost in a presidential race, they would gentleman-ly step back and support the winner. United State could be a united country where we can see the black and the white marriage, and even as we watch porn there are interracial porn! how fucking un-racial is that!

I do love my Malaysia, just because there are too much of crap, it is sad that there are rare good pieces of article of Malaysia can be seen on the web, one of the good article is 1 Malaysia the Korean way as how the writer explain how a foreign act can unite the youth. And an interesting quote there is The kids did not have trouble getting along. “It’s when they lose their innocence and become corrupted by adult prejudices that they start thinking like adult. I also agree that parents do tend to 'poison' their child mind.

Another good piece is by Tony, heck we all admire him. For me, he is someone I could really look up to even though our skin might be the same, people from all races loves the man. He pointed out that we ourself could be champion, yes I do wish someday I would stop worshiping Ferrari, we have our own heroes in Nicol David. From the article Tony said "For too long we have been a nation of losers and we always whack those who try. We ridicule them instead of celebrating ambition, innovation and guts." For me its a good point indeed. Before I ask one of my friend if he would rather an imported 5 year old car or a brand new Proton and he said of course imported one! Malaysian car have been ridicule as Milo can. we wack and we condemn the national car, but one question is, why are we still driving it? 

It will take years to change the people mindset, as the older generation mostly 'poison' my generation, I do hope the idea of One Malaysia by the Prime Minister one day would be a reality, and who knows Tony might be our new PM candidate, he would certainly get my vote. 

"It’s much better than just writing negative stories or post negative video on FB. Go out and make a difference. Don’t just hammer those with a positive attitude. Change today and go out and make a difference" - Tony Fernandes 

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Parents =)

Coming here I not my choice, at time I am pissed with my parents to put me here. But they say always get what you want, but if u try sometimes, you get what you need. That sometimes is true, most of our life is not a Cinderalla story, there always sometimes we wont be happy with, sometimes we cant understand what the lecturer teach, sometimes we wish for a little extra allowance.

Putting all that aside, for this post, I would really thank my parents. Recently I keep track on my spending, and save it on excel. If you really keep track of your spending and put a cap on your daily spending, you will feel the pain of over spending. Things are really getting expensive, no doubt. now 4.50 is the new 3.50 even if you go to hawker. This make me appreciate the allowance my parents gave me even more.

Cost of living is getting higher by the day especially in the city. I really don't know how my parents manage the financial, but I feel, supporting 3 kids who is growing, with tuitions, itself it is really a burden. And pulling a rabbit out of the pocket,  they somehow manage to send all of us to university. Some might argue " got Ptptn mah" but both of my siblings are enrolled in private college. The only way I could see is that my parents always put our need first, instead of getting the high end beauty product, my mom would opt for a more reasonable one, instead of changing his golf club, he bought my sister the handphone that she wanted badly.

I don understand the feeling of being a parent, but I as I grow older I slowly able to catch a little bit of it. Yesterday is suppose to be a very memorable day for me. Its the day I got my freedom. But I have to seat and complete the tons of assignment. Disappointed I could not witness it, but I am really thankful for my parents for giving me the chance. Now, I just want to look forward to do well in in studies, as they always remind me "just study, and don't worry about anything else".

Friday, April 9, 2010

i hate it but i know i will miss it..

With recent events like all the 3 dateline which is coming this Monday,exams and all that jazz, its gonna be, and it is a busy week. Lab is crazy, with people start to line up from 9 p.m onwards, thank God that Yee kean already lined up a day earlier at 5 a.m. thus we manage to finish the lab, the graph at least.

During the week, there also Nano Science exam. I did badly for the first test and not knowing what the question was asking, I hate that feeling. Thus for test 2 this time, I put in a bit more effort, I do hope that it will pay off, and of course, with a little help of Red Bull during the preparation at the library adding the fact that my class starts from 10 am till 7 pm during that day.

Tough, yes....  hate it, a little bit. I mean of course anyone with a sane mind would just want an easy cruising life, but this life as a university student is the opposite, especially when am suppose to graduate next year, if nothing bad happen, the road is getting harder.  but I know like it or not, assignment have to be done, exam have to seat thus instead of venting it better to enjoy the moment as student as much as possible before it ends..

Next semester is my industrial training, there are still some work to do especially the logistics. But coming back the following semester, is not something am looking forward to. yes I would love to graduate, but apart from academics, there are other things that occuring. In short, sometimes friends are there for you, and sometimes friends fuck things up for you. But its not really my decision. Like all the exams and assignment, like it or hate it,its gonna happen and am gonna face it.

On a positive note, am too am thankful to have two wonderful partner in my assignments , Yee Kean and Pei Se. Also some patience and compromise from other group like Jensen's. Other than technical 'support'  from Nanotech course mate like Sooi Long, Ken and Yin Ling. Sometimes when we don't know the person well, we might think they are lansi, but instead of listen to what others said, its better for us to get to know them personally and judge it for ourself.

As the sun is setting we can view the sunlight dim from the library to the grandhall, coming here is not my first choice, but I know I will miss it someday, One more year for me to appreciate it and have no regrets.