If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
her: hi,julian jermaine here.which part of bangsar do u stay?
her: you free tmw nite? coz my parents having this dinner for people living in bangsar.
me: em, ok
her: come la come la bring ur family and frens to fill in the table, coz my parents already paid, so might as well fill in the table rite?so coming?
me: c la..
her: no c la, say yes.if u come, tell me by 3 tmw k?
** i got a sneaky feeeling its something gotta do with election coming..
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
and one intersting quote from aunty cav "changes start from and in YOU!!"
so thanks for everyone that spend their time and open their ears and give their advice when i was not really myself.other than that, Thank God too, i hope i am on the road to recovery after hitting one of the lowest point of my life, i hope i already FALL and now time to FLY!!!!!
i remember two girls sang this song one night at MV. we all went dinner as one of our friend going off to NS. tong hua- fairytales.... i asked one of them if that can b my bed time song. and am sure i will b sleeping with a huge smile on my face with that sweet voice. wonder if i can ever hear it again?
they say you'll hurt the one that love u most...
a mate says " i often regret my speech but never my silence"
chin says " rick price's heaven knows-if you really love her, set her free,if she return in kind, i know she's mine, n don fight"
maybe my love will come back someday... only heaven knows
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Friday, February 22, 2008
as the asia world was rocked by the sex pictures, this is the person who took those pics. and as he sent his laptop for service,the pic was stolen.
i think its a brave move for him to come back to hong kong to apologise when he can just hide in America.is it his fault? i think such things are personal stuff. and its obvious those girls are aware of him taken those pics. i might not b a fan of him, but den again, it takes a man to come up an apologise and putting all those so called man's ego, infinite chances?
though your heart is aching
even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
since its all cny
children's playroom-FINALLY they are more sensitive
give up la, May won't fall for u
everyone wins, even the lorry drivers
fireworks to end the night
Thursday, February 21, 2008
look here n focus lah,exam is near - says meisiem wen teaching me math and m daydreaming
when u answer, must have some confidence- says Mr.Phua, wen asking question for evaluation in lab yesterday
don look at my solution, wen u do urself only can have confidence in exam- says meiseim when teachin math
oi, your blog damn emo wei.. -vi ling when first come to the site yesterday
after a puff or two, you'll get damn high - says ray,wen he try explain the feeling of smoking
there is no point in rebeling- says ranpreet wen giving her lecture
get some rest or else it b worst - says my head when my body is heating with fever now
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
goodbye to you my guju fren,
we know each other since we were 9 or 10,
togather we learn at skbp,
learned of love and ABC,
skinned out heart and skinned our knees,
goodbye my fren its hard to leave,
when all your fren is here in KL,
now spring is in aussie,
pretty girls are everywhere,
think of u,
den you'll be there..
we had joy we had fun,
we had season in malaysia sun,
but the bola and the ball,
like the season had all gone..
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
not too long ago, m sure lots have heard lots of stories on how i broke up.there lots and lots of version of the story, even if you google for my name now, you can find one version of the story. as i don really give a crap what others might think, but i do give a crap what my FRENS do think, as in real fren. the best answer i got from a fren is from dena when she actually asked, and i wont ever forget what she said, " you are my fren, what ever you say, i will belive it, as you are my fren", heck that show that she got my back covered, a hallmark of a true fren. but den again, she is the only fren that ask. others? sad to say, they jump into conclusion.
i know i don jump into defence, or actually come out and explain what really happen.the move that i tot was bold, which is if all they are my fren for sure they wont belive those stories, but it got back fired. i know its easy to misunderstand. as the typical mind set, that woman is the weaker one and normally the guys is the bad person wen a relationship is over, thus out of pity, the girl surely won the vote. and at the same time, i was catching up with my old fren back den and now my current sweetheart,ashley.
well the fact that i ended it the relationship is true. but a big big BUT, did anyone know what actually happen behind the curtain? that anyone, ANYONE at ALL try to put themself in my blardi shoe?! try imagine this, you keep on compromise and give in and be patient with everything, and even wen u try to voice out ur own opinion, you'll end up getting yelled at. its true what cav said " try compromise as much as u can,but den agian, if u compromise too much the feeling will fade". compromising is a good thing, but its bad wen you cant never ever get thing your way, things always goes one way street not 2 ways. heck am not being selfish, but don everyone wan things their way?mayb not all the time, but how about sometime? and your opinion or feelings don really matter to them at ALL. to put the icing on the cake, i only found out that there is another guy, as i quote from her blog "regret i don dump him for another guy at that time", so if i don end the relationship, there is for sure a fling happening right behind my back.
so does anyone ever think bout how does it gonna effect me next time? will i b able to have faith or trust again? instead everyone just jump on the bandwagon and play the blame game.i might not have the most open mind, but wen its my fault, i rise my hand and admit it,but i was wrong, wrong to put a smile on my face no matter what had happened behind the curtains.
Monday, February 18, 2008
"No one can stop time, but when you take a snapshot with your heart, no one can ever take it away." - Kanzaki
sometimes we are not suppose to fix a perfectly working machine, or if thats the winning formula, why change anything rite? at times i feel like my sanity is hang by a thread
i remembered, one used to said, " before you point one finger to me, you are pointing 4 more back at u!" thus, no matter how angry i am or i think something is wrong,........hey like you people who goes to club, am sure u heard of akon's "sorry blame it on me"..
Saturday, February 16, 2008
the boi : hi doc, overseas trip again? new zealand?
dr a: yes, so wen it started?
boi : end of jan?
dr a: u don start smoking rite? or go to smoky place like club?
boi : nope...
after various checks
dr a: at this stage, think u better just live ur life, u r still young, go have as much fun as u can. sometimes phychological factor can play a big role.don over work ur engine.have some deep sleep, that will help ur mind to rest, and at same time ur engin too.u wan me to precribe something to hepl u? .but if it comes to the center, you better rush here.
boi: no thanks, m no heath ledger.
dr a: hahahaha, its good that u can still joke, as some of my patient would already get paranoid and restless..
boi: c u
its nice to have a friend, that makes u go... "thats exactly how i feel!" or "exactly!" although we are far apart, i guess what makes us good fren, we can go talk for hours and have a same way of thinking
Friday, February 15, 2008
phone have been quiet lately. the "message, messege" tone goes off, only when when hotlink have some promotion and not the one that anticipate.
i keep telling myself, "grow up, grow up" as i am tryin to steady my ship...
Thursday, February 14, 2008
i been thinking, how lucky some can get with having parents supporting them, even if ( not being sexist) the job is a male dominated job, some parents still give support to their child to follow the thing they like as long as it is not illegal.
"memang macam cerita tu, aku layan jer" - Jazman
even tho this clip is just from a movie, but den again, once a REAL cadet told me, his trainning just like the show. no i don wan b pilot because of the movie, i wanna be pilot so i could see this HUGE world.and to narrowed the gap of those who are FAR apart, those who are world's apart. and maybe i can help deliver food or medical support to those rural area someday.
no i am not forgetting bout LAOTSE Programme at Munich.i do hope i will get my chance and most important of all my parents blessing to go there. heck, i wan everyone's blessing, especially those who i hold very dear to my heart.
but not to get carried away, i know i got a moutain to climb, the odd are stacking day by day.but i hope to try my best to overcome it.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
heard the song before?
so its valentine today? whats exactly the true meaning of valentine? is it a special day for 2 people are very fond and special to each other to celebrate? or it just another commercial and marketing stretergy? i mean why be all nice and romantic only on valentine? why don we all be all that on every given day? but then again, its like ur birthday, only 1 special day just for u, so i guess valentine especially dedicated to those couple.
well, the atmosphere around campus today, and yes, like any other place for valentine, lots of sale of gift, like bear and roses, and bouquet of flowers.some even bring their bouquet of flowers all around campus even to classes, is either they cant find a aplce to put it, or they just wanna show to everyone that they have one, but oh well, who am i to judge rite?
don v all remember our first valentine ? the first card ? flowers? gift?
well, one funny story i would like to share, it was wen i was in primary, yes am sure all of us have our OWN crush, so am no different to this. but den again, every guy in the school is interested in her.my itchy send her wish her happy valentine on9, as yes i know i said it a million times and none of the time anyone belive me, i AM a SHY boy!!
she return it in a good gesture, with an e-card... it says
valentine day is coming, there are lots of decoration and sale of flower and gift around campus, and of course, online, there are plenty of restaurant offered some delicious dinner. lots have asked " so tomorrow valentine alone, how?" there is no how to it,it might not be great as last year, but den again, i shall not complain due to the situation. lots of others have their own plan, some even skipping the whole day lecture tomorrow.i think even my electronics lecture, that have some sort of mirror image of my ex roommate, have some plan due to his cancelation of class.but that just my guessing.
hopefully the moon will shine brightly tomorrow as am still waiting for the "sun" in me to rise up again..
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
anyways,i find it very hard to pay attention this semester.from the holiday, to the new sem to the chinese new year break. my mind seem drifting away. i feel like walking away from everything sometimes. the tot of quitting FOE ( faculty of engineering) too crossed my mind.things are getting harder and harder, and am stacking up the odds on my own self. if i walk away from everything i would disappoint lots of people, especially that are close to my heart. heck i hate to get disappointed myself, so i don wanna give others the disappointment.a promise is a promise,i promise to give it a try, and i will try my hardest to keep that.it is very frustrating as no matter how hard or how much i gave my all, it just don work my way. but am in TOO deep just to walk away.
i would like to thank, meisiem n also kelvin who have all the patience to help me with some math prob. teaching a slow person like me does take lots of patience.
almost every night b4 i sleep, i ask God, " Dear Lord, what did i did wrong today?" last time one of my house mate at melaka told me, why he became an enginner because he wanted to build a time machine, how i wish i can have that now....
Sunday, February 10, 2008
*the more u go, the more u pushing me away.....