If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
However till I witness this myself, yes a good attitude is important in anything we do. The years old experience of the parents and all the other old people I met, surely there are some truth in it. After all, my few months of experience is just considered as infant stage.
Attitude is important as most of us are just normal mortal that always and everyday in a learning curve. Even though we think we know certain things, there is no harm in just listening again to a much more experience person, as there are some things that we might not know or have missed out.
The ' its not my job' attitude is just making ourself learn lesser. I belief as for chain of event that happen for past few days, things happen for a reason, and its up to us really on how to view it. Life as an intern I've already anticipate the others would give me job that nobody wants to do. Yes there are few ways to look at it. For example
- Am an "engineer" WTF you ask me to do a clerk job
- Lazy idiots giving me his/her job
Monday, August 23, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
August have been kind to me in a way of catching up with my friends, especially those that I have not yet for months and months. As we go on,
For instance earlier of the month when I went to Bubba Gump, Sunway as one of my close friend, Amar's birthday. His girlfriend wanted to make a surprise party for him, thus she contacted me via facebook. So there I was with few familiar faces, like Pei Ling who is back for summer break, and one of MMU's lecturer/tutor too was on the guest list. I find myself lost in the conversation as majority of them are in the IT world, only me and Pei Ling who is NOT on the IT field.
The following weekend I met up with Raja who is also back for Summer break, meeting up with our friends in Bangsar, the most of them start to talk about medical stuff, as majority are medics student.Graduating in a year's time I am still contemplating which field would I enter.
But back to yesterday (friday) was the first trip to ramadan bazaar this year. Rizal who came down just to meet up with us came with raja to the Seksyen 14 ramadan bazaar which is a walk away from my office. Although its a rainy day, that does not stop us, NO, in the spirit of the ramadan bazaar, rain or shine, we WILL go through it. Although this bazaar its not that big, I guess what means more to me other than the food is the period of waiting till the clock strike 7.30 p.m where its time to break fast. I mean its different when I go with my family to ramadan bazaar, as soon as we are in the car, the food is already half way gone while we are half way home. The waiting, the patience of those good smelling indulgence really put thing in perspective on the meaning behind ramadan, where its a period to reflect back, especially to the less fortunate one.
Spending time with some muslim friends and trying out their custom, well at least for an hour :P do make me understand them more, as understand leads more to a unity especially in the month of August, bulan kemerdekaan.
Friday, August 13, 2010
But thats not the point of this post, this post is about how much I really missed doing something really meaningful. I found myself lost in my chase to material and luxury. There are something money can't buy
What I mean by meaningful here is the things that they do. Brats always a program that bring city slicker back to the basics and to the rural area and vice versa. It's an exposure for the participant to get familiar and what is outside from their own box of concrete jungle. Can take for example my cousins from singapore would chase the goat and chicken around when we are back in kampung, as they never see it before, other than Animal planet or the zoo.
Other than that, it teaches us to give back to the community. During this trip they build a play ground for the less fortunate. It is this kinda feeling that I miss, or the Angelina Jolie hormone in me is raging. But once you accomplish something that is meaningful and bring smile to others, when you can see joy in their eye or when they thank you. It just make u feel good about your self,
Rushing to go to Armsterdam to try their 'brownies' and all that. Today make me realise there are lot more to that. Of course trip abroad or as far as we can go, those are other kind of trill, the trip when u take with your frens, to do crazy stuff, well those are other type of trill..
Maybe some will take it me, remeniscene about Brats is like how Kok Jin always talk about his orchestra, but I guess each of us have a special affiliation that are close to our heart.
After being evil most of the time, I think this sort of trip would bring me more meaning on a personal level.Donating for charity I guess it's different when you do more to a hands on approach.
There are so many material things that we will chase, but once we stop chasing them and appreciate for what we have, they will start chasing us. Don't regret like me, instead having a lifetime and meaningful experience to able to help others, I choose exam. "How many 10 years do we have? "- Chai Kau
Thursday, August 12, 2010
The other is to try to break the chinese language barrier. The language have been a barrier, as much as I hate to step out of my comfort zone of speaking english, it does limit my versatileness. In a country which have 3 major races, I think I do well in speaking Malay,and English. However chinese is always been a problem to me. Growing up in an area most that made up most of by Malay then Indian. Sometimes I do notice that some of my indian friend even speak bahasa with each other, if they cant speak their mother tongue. But I personally find it hard to speak to chinese because of my poor command of the language.
If you cant speak, you are labeled as banana, ang moh bear, OCBC and so on. Once I even got screwed by the chinese taxi driver when I cant communicate with him in chinese.
Sometimes I hate it when people talk cock about me in front of me assuming I don know a single alphabet of chinese.
Thus I convince few of my colleague who kindly obliged to my request to help me with my chinese, it went ok although we are used to communicate in english, but when I have the mood, I speak chinese to them. They are kind enough not to burst into laughter of my pronunciation and even correct it.
However there is always a torn in between the roses. Sometimes we feel malu because certain word we can't say it properly and well.... in short just taking baby steps. So once when I kindly reply in the simplest form of mandrin, and torn or
I mean if she speak in english, I would definitely piss on her. Pissing on someone is a debate term where you shoot a person till there is no chance for that person to safe or could give any reply what so ever.
So I found this as someone posted on FB
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
So let me explain how the chain law works. Ever seen a good looking hunk of a friking good looking chic that could melt your popsicle ?If you see them at the mall with their friend, you can find approximately around 87.95% of the people around them or with them are the same kind, the gorgeous good looking one. And if you stalk people on fb, you also will find their list of friend of group of friend are the same type with them. If those who love to show some skin, well their friends would show more or less similar skin.
On the other hand, if you see well, this is hard to say, but the a bit over the tip of the scale, you will find almost 75% of the time, they are in the similar community. Yes the chain law.
If we are shy or choose to live in denial that we don't check people out, fine. The chain law is versitile and could be tested when you are with your friends.
Try go for a drink at a mamak stall for example. Let say the first person order Teh tarik, it is likely the next person would order the same thing and the chain goes on, of course till some people break the chain. but you can see the trend following. Maybe one o the reason is the second person who order the drink is undecided on what he/she wanted .
Chain law.... true story.
Friday, August 6, 2010
But out of so many people of course its not so easy to strike the lottery kan? This week have been a lazy week at work, and I disappointed in 3 level
On the other level is Thursday I did 2 things that I have not done for a few years, the first being writing a formal letter and the second one being going to pasar malam, and jongker street is not consider as pasar malam.
You see porno at the dvd peddeler, apam, fake crocs, woman socks, pjs, foods and ah moi selling durian... and you know u are in a pasar malam.This is after having dinner at my sister's place.However, while I am enjoying walking through pasar malam, even though am still in my working clothes,apparently there is a fight at a prominent mamak stall.
Being a kaypo, of course there are crowds gather and even a police patrol car with 2 officer. However, what really put a bitter taste to it is you know when in a fight, there is this mulut murai aunty trying to tell the story to the 'spectator' like me that just arrive.
And she said " lei tay la, chong yi yam teh tarik, roti canai, yi ka kak leng yan ta thong yan, yi kor mo thong yan, hoi tei Mmm tak ar"
yes my translation might not be as accurate as the ISO of chinese language, but in my heart, I really don't know what is 'thong yan or kak leng yan' why? because I am Malaysian. It is this kinda sentiment that easily makes people feel offended. The May 13 no doubt are spark with this kinda people. Are we that desperate to always use the race card to solve problem? This remind me when I read a post by Yee Kean when he touch about how the older people influence our young mind, for example like ah kong money, and also chance to get scholarship and further education.
But at this race, I am sorry to our PM but his vision of 1 Malaysia wont come true because of the older generation that 'poisoning' the young mind. No matter how I don really like staying in Klang, but when I went to Indian street the other day, I saw Malaysia there. Although the majority of the tenant there are Indian ( thats y its called Indian street) I saw a big masjid, and at the back of it is a indian kuil, and further down a bit from the road is a church and not so distant away is a buddisht temple. For years all this places of worship is here and people just mind their own business and respect each other without creating a fuss.
There are 2 other things that really bug me, is FYP and also what the heck I wanna do after grad. There are lots of lecturer out there however they are looking at the cream of the crops, so who are going to take the average joes? And the location and the field that I wanna work in after grad. Am sure a lot is wondering "how i wish i could make a 180 turn and escape from engineering" kan? well, me too.. however I guess I don really have the courage I mean if I fail, those people who I have to go against to make the 180 turn will just pijak and pijak. Also for me, who don't really come from the wealthy family, I cant slowly try and error on other field.
Excuse me for don't really know what I am writting-lah, might delete this post or I just go to sleep. its 8.49 AM on a SATURDAY!!! WTFF