my eyes are so fcuking teary now.
but i am doing fine.
the decision is made in lonely night
i have to pay the price.
Do you know that crying is not pitiful enough? the most torturing feeling is when you feel like crying, you want to cry but the tears are not coming out. the stress and pressure are stucked in your heart. you can feel them hidding behind your eyes, at the edge of bursting but somehow your ego takes them back. you need to swallow all your tears back. i feel like screaming but i am too weak to gather all my strength and yell my heart out.
am so empty. big precious part of mine which form who am i today, are missing.
i ran away from where i used stay just now. i thought of taking some fresh air.
but i still see her shadow wherever i go. just everywhere.
there wasn't an familiar hand here , for me to grab while watching movie. i am not used to it but i have to adapt.
Everything has changed.
and i know i will be fine soon. just not yet,