If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
random
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
my christmas wish
Its been raining non-stop tonight, since from the moment I finished my class at 7 just now. I saw the dark cloud shift swiftly and I waited for the rain to stop. And the nice part is, I saw a jumbo jet come out of the dark cloud. Can imagine all the turbulence the passenger. As the nights goes on.. I was reading my notes on my bed. I saw a few plane flying at a low altitude. Either there are lots of landing tonight or because of the pilot wanted to escape the cloud. Suddenly it strike me, the song was playing on my head “ through the years we all will be together, if the faith allows” yes is the I’ll be home for Christmas song. Last year was great Christmas. Great as in the sense of I rather lots of my friends and we had a dinner together.. am so so sorry for those that are not there because its kinda in a short notice.
Pei ling, Ashley, Raymond, amar, sharean and myself was there. Those were the days when everything was tight among us. And a chance for us to catch up. We might NOT be close as before but its nice to have the old familiar faces back. I also took this chance to gather everyone because some of us might leave for a long long time and we MIGHT not see each other again. Though I HATE it, but I guess it’s the fact of life sometimes when everyone goes their separate ways. But my very wish is, for everyone still contact each other and catch up once in a while. Though our life might change, still we should make space for our old friends, those who are with us, from the beginning. We might, think what we do last time is immature and all.. but those were the days, when we are young and do crazy stuff without thinking of the consequences.
Maybe this is the magic of Christmas. It bring everyone together. No matter how long or far we been a part especially those that we are closed to before. Maybe it’s the distance, nobody can help it, if we all don’t get close like before.. but maybe the dinner might be simple, but I think we all should grab the chance to attend it, to rekindle our friendships. Maybe that’s my Christmas wish this year. So for all my friends who is reading this, get the hint.. hehehheehe
Thursday, June 21, 2007
nostalgic
With my i-pod playing Micheal Jackson’s “childhood” and “you r not alone” remind me of the days when I am young.. those were the kind of music that I used to listen to. Compared to kids or teens now listen to heavy metal, with all those gothic and black metal motif. How the world have change. I miss those days when am bout studying my primary school in Kelantan, they used to end the school on a Thursday and start on a Sunday. So every Thursday I would come back home and do my homework instantly, before that I would wash my school shoe.. I wanna finish my homework coz I wanna watch RAW is WAR. Is a wrestling show. When I watched it in my grandpa house, I kinda influence my LATE grandfather, the one grandfather that I met to it. So if my family would visit my grandparents house on the weekends, he would hold my hand and drag me watch wrestling with him, or if not, its badminton. Regardless I was playing with my other cousins.. its amazing too that old man can cook good soup. He knows my older brother love it.. so he never fail to go to the market and buy all the ingredient. As for my sister, well, as all the girls would melt men heart, so she would watch the Chinese series with him. Its sad that he is gone, when my family’s fortune is a bit better. Coz I know my parents would bring him to try the Chinese food that he is craving about or my mom would sent or accompany him and my grandma to China or other part of the world coz he love to walk and see new things, regardless his age. Maybe some part of me belive that his departure, and our sudden slight of good fortune, make me think that he is blessing all of us from up there. My only regret is I don have the chance to put the last joss stick for him.. being a Christian, my dad forbid me from it. So I was just left bowing, as I also represent my siblings as they have important exam on the final day of the funeral, thus, they fly off in the morning.
I believe that his departure is like a turning point for me. Yes me might watch tv together, but we are not as close like all my cousins with him, mainly is because of my poor Chinese. I would say it’s a turning point because, it’s the first time am showing emotion at a relative funeral.. I been involve with 2 before this.. but somehow I was moved by this 1. as the casket was putted into the oven to cremate, I was still the ice cold, emotionless… I did saw my mom cried badly during the last rites.. that a 1st too.. my dad hugged her to console her. My mom wanted me to be at the front of the coffin car.. I mean the front seat. To throw those praying paper.. being a wussy in all this thing that involve the “other” world.. I kinda hesitated, but looking at my mom like that, its hard for me to say no.. plus my dad don’t have any objection. In the van, am still afraid, with the praying played. Thank goodness my cousin was there beside me with me. At that point am still emotionless.. though I can c through the back panel mirrow, my mom was hugging the casket. The ritual before putting the casket into the oven still leave me emotionless.. but all my wall like crumble down, when the casket was about to be move in the hot oven, I saw my lil cousin who about half my age started crying.. calling my grandpa.. at that moment, like a slap that takes me back to reality.. and it says “ its YOUR grandfather funeral!” from that moment I start to show more emotion than before.. I feel that I am more expressive than before. And I kinda keep thinking more about my life. Mayb the word here help me grow, and care for other people too..
Saturday, June 16, 2007
wat i SHOULD b...
the longest thing that i wanted, now almost gone...but if i don b a pilot, i dono what would i b.i do hav this interst in economic and business, tho i never study any of those subject before....like the IRD ( iskandar region development) which will b another mega project for our country and attract company from all over the region, there also tax cuts. which will do good for our economy. and our stock also break the 1000 plus barrier, the highest since the economy melt down. i dono.. stuff like this just make me read more.. there are interest in that i assume. i alson wonder why ppl keep thinking why China is the fat PIG.. of course the business and economy there is picking up, but if we can conquer our region, south east asia, where there are more than 100 million ppl, wont we b successful already? the thing with china is, there are TOO much of competition. if we focus on our region only, we also helped our nation to develop, and put our country on the track...
i dono what am saying... herm.....till then, i heard there are no internet access yet at my place in CYBER, deepest apology if i di update.. all the best for those A level ppl taking exam now and enjoy u r holidays, and those that gonna start study again, ppl like bob... have fun... till then GOD bless
warning:cyber.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
venezia
in the train i have a priest seated. he is from milano.. well my dad talked to him A LOT and being a typically busybody Malaysia i hear what they talked bout. its kinda hard not to anyways, it is just in front of me! well.. from their conversation i found out that....
- u need to get a university degree than only u can enter theology school.
- and a priest get paid from all the donation from people and also a small amout from the church.
- that living in roma is not CHEAP. tho the graduate can earm about minimum 1500 euro.. but almost 3/4 of his/her salary will go to the house rental
- italian change their car LOTS... coz an average car there cost around 5000-8000 euro...
- and the north part of italy is very expensive if compared to the south.. like a pizza in the north u can get around 8-10 euros but in the south like Sicily you can get around 3 euro
when i've arrive in venice, my got the shock of my life.. its true!!!, i saw a river.. infront of me and on the right is the bridge that u can walk.. and lots of boat passby.. was like HOLY!!
i found out from that venice is made from 99 small islands.. so as ppl connect it is joined..
from my view, i think the taxi is the most expensive taxi in the world... since its boat and all... and of coz nicely done..look luxurious too...like an average joe.. we took the bigger boat.. its like the bus there. we took it so ST.Marks square. i got a bit of sea sick in the boat tho.. hehehehe after walking a bit.. i got my head right. and yes there is where i c the venice trademark.. the mask. and also some Murano glasses.. and not forgotten the ilusive gondola.. but its freaking expensive.. like 20 euro per person.
we did feed the birds tho.. purchased the bird food from the only person that selling.. you need a license to sell the bird food here.its kinda scary at first... i fear the beat will hurt i mean there lots of them.. and once the saw food all will come after u.
at st.marks u can find all sort of shop here.. and yes there is a ferari store.things are all red and beautiful there.. and not no mention the price too.. heheheehe. anyways luck not on on our side again as it RAIN... after a LONG day walking at st.marks we took the "bus" to the hotel... b4 reaching, it turns 1 whole round of the island.. and saw the casino too... and a special hilton hotel boat.. guess thats for the ppl who stay there. intersting view.
we decide to take shower b4 dinner as we caught in the rain.. well.. as we walked a lot, din noticed the time was around 9 ++ pm... well italian hav a habit of eating late dinner.so finding a place to eat is not problem... but the price is the problem.. it is much more expensive to eat here than other part of italy.. mayb milan can beat it.. but i don think no where else.you know lah since its an island and tourist place and stuff.. tho the food is one of the best in the trip.. interesting food like squid spegetthi and some seafood. seafood r fresh too.. we go for a walk after that.. and saw someone playin accordion by the bridge.. he was good..after the wild wind blowing.. and tomorrow we need get up early we decide to go 2 bed.
after breakfast the next morning, we went to Murano island.thats where the famous Murano glass are made. its a sacred family business and past down from generation to generation.. so ppl outside the family dono the art of doin this. and a tip for u if u gonna get a murano glass.. look up for sticker or signature of the maker to prove as its genuine.. only apply for those that buyin stuff like a vase or something.. for small thing like a ring or hair clip theres no sticker. its because lots of China imitation. we went to the factory tour, the master make it look so simple as he demostrate how to do a horse.
leave Venice and vow to return here again.. i have some unsettled business...hehehehe
Monday, June 11, 2007
firenze
we checked into the hotel. nice place, been greeted by the lady, ms,stefana. i realise that italians r very stylish no matter how old they areee. sunglasses is a MUST. i mean everywhere u look there must b some ray-ban, and dolce and gabana belt. after putting our bags, we head to the leather market. at the junction of the market, i can smell those leather.all their local product r here. from leather jacket to leather key chain. leather jacket cost about 150 euro which kinda intersting IF i had the cash hehehehehe... we ate at this place called "pork" was impress how the waiter use pda to take our order. i mean the only place i c that happen here is at "sagar". we took the train to a city called PISA. yes thats where the leaning tower is located. the place was beautiful.. green grass, blue cloud... the whole 9yard
day 2 we decide to blow off the Chianti wine yard trip to go to Sienna.for the reasons
- we NEED a car to go to Chianti
- and the hotel ppl says Sienna is much more Beautiful
we'll Chianti is one of Italy's famous wine producer... but what the heck took the bus to Sienna.. a quiet town in the Touscany region. there are some wine yard too along the way.Sienna is like a valley. so as we arrive there this HUGE square where everyone are.some sun bathe, some just soaking the sun while reading their novels and some having their meal. oh yea... there lots of shopping to do b4 the HUGE square but they kinda jack up the price since its a tourist place. i went in the video store as i c a HUGE micheal buble cut out at the shop, so i guess he got a new album. apparently i bum into some "interesting" dvd instead of buble's album. oh yea... sienna is great for street photography coz got lots of lorong and stuff, and the scenery is wonderful
off to venezia............