don't you hate it when you realize that your parents is right? i mean after all that constant arguement and than you realize that they are right? its all started in this morning english class as, the lecturer was explaining bout 'symbols'. as there are various symbol practically for everything.. for example lily can represent death and yellow roses can represent friendship. mayb its just a temporary obsession, but i kinda like all these stuff. i mean i am kinda interested on how the greatest tool that ever created works. the human mind that is. instead am learning on how things that human created works, resistors and all... sigh.

its interesting how a human mind works. i mean i can stay at the mamak stall or coffee house just ponder around for human. how they behave and look. very facinating i might add. there are a lot of why's poping through my mind. like 'why that girl with the mini-skirt have leggin?' ' why that fat ugly guy with the hot chic?' or 'why that dude driving that sexy car?' yes its hard to understand everyone... but the best v can do is just observe just a sample of the population.

and just know, i got a slap in the face (no literally lah...) there is the classmate of mine that ALWAYS doin homework and constatly pays 1000% attention in the class and i can hardly pays 40% of my attention. i wonder what is the drive behind this human? is it human or robot? finally i found out that hardship at small age makes the person work harder and harder so wont taste the bad times again... and i wonder as i walk back to my place from class, thats exactly the same reason what my mom sent me here for... (now there is the slapping starts) as i hate to admit it, my mom was right, there lots more to life than having fun,partying and stuff like that.she wants me to taste the hardship of life, how people struggle and the value of a dollar.though i know that lots people struggle in life, but tasting it or observe it with your own self its a totally different experience....

p/s: guess i'll be burning the midnight oil...