pics from chillis @ bsc...guess i already said what happen on the previous post rite... well.. ashley cutted the heart shaped chicken meat into 2!! oh well....thats all for now....ta
Thursday, April 26, 2007
26/04/07
pics from chillis @ bsc...guess i already said what happen on the previous post rite... well.. ashley cutted the heart shaped chicken meat into 2!! oh well....thats all for now....ta
top 10 things to do
julian things to do list...
1 word to describe it......."BEAUTIFUL" yes everything is beautiful since my quiet return to bangsar on wednesday evening.. lots of my friends might not know am back because
- spend as much time as possible with ashley
- watch tv
- STUDY STUDY STUDY
- chillis
- mamak
- mid v
- book flight tickets and all the transport for the kids for trip in december
- make any last preparation for my trip in my/june
- pool
- and more FooD!!!
1 word to describe it......."BEAUTIFUL" yes everything is beautiful since my quiet return to bangsar on wednesday evening.. lots of my friends might not know am back because
- i HAVE to study for my finals
- iHAVE to study for lab finals (coming thursday)
- i HAVE to catch up on what i've been missing in class due to my day dreaming
so so so so so so SORRY everyone... but than guess wat happen...i met dena gurdip at the street of bangsar... at least some consolation and they still know am ALIVE!!! i was walking around with her.. who? yes ashley. ashley CHIN TIEN NI with some of my class mate think i am a player dating 2 girls at 1 time ( ashley and tien ni).and now no more questions k dena and gurdip. oh well.... we went to starbucks... how come nobody tell me there is the out door area at starbucks which can c the view of bangsar!!??? went there get the breeze and catching up some lost time.
at home, yes home sweet home!! i parked my butt on the couch.i love the couch btw.till dinner.which i might add was 'beautiful'. mom cook sotong!! my fav... and last nite it even get better prawns and sotong. what is it tonight still remain a mystery... hehehhee but home cook food is always the best.guess i miss it LOTS. and i watch the chelsea and liverpool match with my dad and bro. its been a while since 3 of us watch a football watch togather, heck to even stay in the house at the same time, since my dad constant travelin and so do my brother though he got shifted to J.b from singapore and me myself.. in lil old melaka. so it was a good touch to the bond.. though its no man u match but what the hell
day2 ,thursday...did the things on my to do list.....spend time with ashley, (did i type too much of ashley in this post?sorry cant seem to get enough of her ) anyways v went to chilis at bangsar shopping complex.. she was reluctant to go...she is afraid i blew a hole in my wallet, but then again i kinda insist on it. high and might pie have my name all written on it...and the citrus rice with chicken and prawn is just heavenly. bill at chillis---forgotten how much... a perfect date--priceless. then v go to the socials to play pool! seems like my back hand -no look-shot works for once =) then we crash into bangsar village. sent her home with a big fat smile on my face. oh another thing on my list that i did on my way home, get rojak. yes those beautful food in kacang sauce.
off to watch numbers....at 6 am =)
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
guys watch out
Why I wouldn’t date him…By Dave Singleton
When it comes to sizing up our dates, don’t we all feel a little Seinfeld-ian from time to time? When I interviewed women for this article, I heard many, many complaints—from the universal, easily understood to the mystifyingly personal. Let me give you some samples: “He smoked.” “He wasn’t nice to the waiter.” “He put ketchup on his eggs—gross!” “His shoes were too pointy.” “His nose hair needed grooming.” “He looked like he’d be a slobbery kisser.” During those early dates, many of us turn into Jerry, Elaine and George, and nitpick our dates into obscurity. But after you’ve made it through the first few obstacles and dated him for a few months, what are the next series of “should we continue or not” hurdles you face? I discovered there are some common themes when it comes to why women give a guy a chance… and then give him the old heave-ho. Listen in as women share what turns Mr. Maybe into Mr. Not-If-You-Were-the-Last-Man-on-Earth:
Mr. Bad Manners. “While eating spaghetti, he practically buried his face in the bowl and slurped the noodles, then tried to talk to me with noodles dangling from his mouth,” says Jenny, 29, of Washington, D.C., who dated Todd, 32, for three months. “I wish I had seen his bad manners earlier,” says Jenny. “What I learned is that people can stay on their best behavior for a few weeks, or even months, but eventually, the truth comes out. I guess that Todd was on his best behavior the first month or so. He didn’t show such poor table manners at first. But after asking him repeatedly and politely to stop chewing with his mouth open, I finally gave up. He wouldn’t listen to me and was very defensive about the whole subject. I learned one thing about myself. Bad table manners are my deal-breaker.”Lesson to learn: Stay on your best manners—until they become your everyday manners.
Mr. Cheapo. “Barry, the man I was seeing for five months, is cute, but I hate that he’s cheap,” says Linda, 37, of Norfolk, VA. “He’s my age and makes a good living as a lawyer. So he has no excuse, really. Cheapness is the kiss of death for me. I hate when a man you’re seeing turns into an accountant at the end of a meal or event. Barry would turn to me and say, ‘And your half comes to…,’ until it finally drove me crazy. The final straw was when, on my birthday, he gave me a tacky “re-gift” out of his closet. To top it off, he never wanted to spend money going to plays or cultural events. I’m not saying a guy needs to spend a mint on me, but I believe money should be used in moderation to create great shared experiences and convey affection. It wasn’t about the money as much as it was his attitude.”Lesson to learn: Be open to spending some money on shared experiences that bond the two of you and create great memories. Also know that there are plenty of women out there who expect a guy to pay until the relationship is rock-solid (not saying it’s fair, just that’s the way it is).
Mr. Zero Ambition. “We had fun at first,” says Stacy, 35, of Pasadena, CA, about her short-term boyfriend Allan, 36. “But I had to leave him after six months. Yes, he was a nice guy. It just didn't feel right with him because he has no future ambition, like getting married or wanting to have a stable career. He works at a video store, which would have been fine, but he just doesn’t seem to care about what he does or have any plan for his life (hey, he usually didn’t even have a plan for the weekend!). Eventually, I want to buy a home and fix it up with my husband. I also want to have kids, which costs a lot of money these days, so I need a guy who cares at least a little about finances. I enjoyed his company for the months we were together, but his passive approach to just watching his life go by got to me. It got boring to be with a guy who never wanted to do anything but watch TV.”Lesson learned: Think about where you want to be in 5 or 10 years, and take steps to go after it. Take a small risk, show some initiative. And if your job doesn’t thrill you, try sharing something else that you are passionate about — Mexican food, kayaking, whatever — with your date so she can learn from you and feel a deeper connection and an excitement about being with you.
Mr. Neglectful. “Once we got into the comfort zone of dating regularly, he started ignoring me and I couldn’t take it anymore,” says Sharon, 39, of Hartford, CT, of Lou, 42, her boyfriend of four months. “What started out as an exciting relationship turned into such a lonely affair. When we first met, he surprised me with calls during the day, funny emails, and nights out on the town. But little by little, he stopped doing all of that. He made excuses for not spending as much time with me. He either saw his friends alone several nights a week or wanted to, in his words, ‘chill out from the long work day.’ The funny thing is that I don’t think he was planning to break up with me. Even though I’d been telling him for a few weeks that I wasn’t happy with the lack of time and energy going into our relationship, he seemed surprised when I broke up with him. It’s like he wooed me and then once he got me, he didn’t want to make an effort anymore. Lack of connection seemed fine with him, but it didn’t work for me.”Lesson learned: You don’t have to be with her 24/7, but do know that there’s the expectation by many women to see their guy once during the week and on the weekend—once they get into a dating groove, that is. If you can’t spend that much time with her, let her know you’re thinking of her with a quick email or text message now and then, or just a voicemail saying that you’re heading out to hockey practice with the guys but are thinking of how much fun it will be to see her on the weekend.
Mr. Independence. “What happens when you realize you’re dating someone who isn’t sure he wants to be dating?” asks New Yorker Diane, 32. “I met Tom through friends and really liked him… but as we began dating regularly — three or four times a week — I noticed that he kept joking about how he’d never marry until he was 50, how he was thinking of going on a guys-only vacation over the summer… it was as if he wanted me to know, don’t get too serious about this guy. He still treated me well, but I couldn’t ignore the signals he was so clearly sending about his priorities, and broke things off.”Lesson learned: Not looking to get serious? Send those signals out from day one. Don’t start seeing someone and then back-pedal like crazy. It’s much better to find someone who’s also looking for something casual, too.
When it comes to sizing up our dates, don’t we all feel a little Seinfeld-ian from time to time? When I interviewed women for this article, I heard many, many complaints—from the universal, easily understood to the mystifyingly personal. Let me give you some samples: “He smoked.” “He wasn’t nice to the waiter.” “He put ketchup on his eggs—gross!” “His shoes were too pointy.” “His nose hair needed grooming.” “He looked like he’d be a slobbery kisser.” During those early dates, many of us turn into Jerry, Elaine and George, and nitpick our dates into obscurity. But after you’ve made it through the first few obstacles and dated him for a few months, what are the next series of “should we continue or not” hurdles you face? I discovered there are some common themes when it comes to why women give a guy a chance… and then give him the old heave-ho. Listen in as women share what turns Mr. Maybe into Mr. Not-If-You-Were-the-Last-Man-on-Earth:
Mr. Bad Manners. “While eating spaghetti, he practically buried his face in the bowl and slurped the noodles, then tried to talk to me with noodles dangling from his mouth,” says Jenny, 29, of Washington, D.C., who dated Todd, 32, for three months. “I wish I had seen his bad manners earlier,” says Jenny. “What I learned is that people can stay on their best behavior for a few weeks, or even months, but eventually, the truth comes out. I guess that Todd was on his best behavior the first month or so. He didn’t show such poor table manners at first. But after asking him repeatedly and politely to stop chewing with his mouth open, I finally gave up. He wouldn’t listen to me and was very defensive about the whole subject. I learned one thing about myself. Bad table manners are my deal-breaker.”Lesson to learn: Stay on your best manners—until they become your everyday manners.
Mr. Cheapo. “Barry, the man I was seeing for five months, is cute, but I hate that he’s cheap,” says Linda, 37, of Norfolk, VA. “He’s my age and makes a good living as a lawyer. So he has no excuse, really. Cheapness is the kiss of death for me. I hate when a man you’re seeing turns into an accountant at the end of a meal or event. Barry would turn to me and say, ‘And your half comes to…,’ until it finally drove me crazy. The final straw was when, on my birthday, he gave me a tacky “re-gift” out of his closet. To top it off, he never wanted to spend money going to plays or cultural events. I’m not saying a guy needs to spend a mint on me, but I believe money should be used in moderation to create great shared experiences and convey affection. It wasn’t about the money as much as it was his attitude.”Lesson to learn: Be open to spending some money on shared experiences that bond the two of you and create great memories. Also know that there are plenty of women out there who expect a guy to pay until the relationship is rock-solid (not saying it’s fair, just that’s the way it is).
Mr. Zero Ambition. “We had fun at first,” says Stacy, 35, of Pasadena, CA, about her short-term boyfriend Allan, 36. “But I had to leave him after six months. Yes, he was a nice guy. It just didn't feel right with him because he has no future ambition, like getting married or wanting to have a stable career. He works at a video store, which would have been fine, but he just doesn’t seem to care about what he does or have any plan for his life (hey, he usually didn’t even have a plan for the weekend!). Eventually, I want to buy a home and fix it up with my husband. I also want to have kids, which costs a lot of money these days, so I need a guy who cares at least a little about finances. I enjoyed his company for the months we were together, but his passive approach to just watching his life go by got to me. It got boring to be with a guy who never wanted to do anything but watch TV.”Lesson learned: Think about where you want to be in 5 or 10 years, and take steps to go after it. Take a small risk, show some initiative. And if your job doesn’t thrill you, try sharing something else that you are passionate about — Mexican food, kayaking, whatever — with your date so she can learn from you and feel a deeper connection and an excitement about being with you.
Mr. Neglectful. “Once we got into the comfort zone of dating regularly, he started ignoring me and I couldn’t take it anymore,” says Sharon, 39, of Hartford, CT, of Lou, 42, her boyfriend of four months. “What started out as an exciting relationship turned into such a lonely affair. When we first met, he surprised me with calls during the day, funny emails, and nights out on the town. But little by little, he stopped doing all of that. He made excuses for not spending as much time with me. He either saw his friends alone several nights a week or wanted to, in his words, ‘chill out from the long work day.’ The funny thing is that I don’t think he was planning to break up with me. Even though I’d been telling him for a few weeks that I wasn’t happy with the lack of time and energy going into our relationship, he seemed surprised when I broke up with him. It’s like he wooed me and then once he got me, he didn’t want to make an effort anymore. Lack of connection seemed fine with him, but it didn’t work for me.”Lesson learned: You don’t have to be with her 24/7, but do know that there’s the expectation by many women to see their guy once during the week and on the weekend—once they get into a dating groove, that is. If you can’t spend that much time with her, let her know you’re thinking of her with a quick email or text message now and then, or just a voicemail saying that you’re heading out to hockey practice with the guys but are thinking of how much fun it will be to see her on the weekend.
Mr. Independence. “What happens when you realize you’re dating someone who isn’t sure he wants to be dating?” asks New Yorker Diane, 32. “I met Tom through friends and really liked him… but as we began dating regularly — three or four times a week — I noticed that he kept joking about how he’d never marry until he was 50, how he was thinking of going on a guys-only vacation over the summer… it was as if he wanted me to know, don’t get too serious about this guy. He still treated me well, but I couldn’t ignore the signals he was so clearly sending about his priorities, and broke things off.”Lesson learned: Not looking to get serious? Send those signals out from day one. Don’t start seeing someone and then back-pedal like crazy. It’s much better to find someone who’s also looking for something casual, too.
slap
don't you hate it when you realize that your parents is right? i mean after all that constant arguement and than you realize that they are right? its all started in this morning english class as, the lecturer was explaining bout 'symbols'. as there are various symbol practically for everything.. for example lily can represent death and yellow roses can represent friendship. mayb its just a temporary obsession, but i kinda like all these stuff. i mean i am kinda interested on how the greatest tool that ever created works. the human mind that is. instead am learning on how things that human created works, resistors and all... sigh.
its interesting how a human mind works. i mean i can stay at the mamak stall or coffee house just ponder around for human. how they behave and look. very facinating i might add. there are a lot of why's poping through my mind. like 'why that girl with the mini-skirt have leggin?' ' why that fat ugly guy with the hot chic?' or 'why that dude driving that sexy car?' yes its hard to understand everyone... but the best v can do is just observe just a sample of the population.
and just know, i got a slap in the face (no literally lah...) there is the classmate of mine that ALWAYS doin homework and constatly pays 1000% attention in the class and i can hardly pays 40% of my attention. i wonder what is the drive behind this human? is it human or robot? finally i found out that hardship at small age makes the person work harder and harder so wont taste the bad times again... and i wonder as i walk back to my place from class, thats exactly the same reason what my mom sent me here for... (now there is the slapping starts) as i hate to admit it, my mom was right, there lots more to life than having fun,partying and stuff like that.she wants me to taste the hardship of life, how people struggle and the value of a dollar.though i know that lots people struggle in life, but tasting it or observe it with your own self its a totally different experience....
p/s: guess i'll be burning the midnight oil...
its interesting how a human mind works. i mean i can stay at the mamak stall or coffee house just ponder around for human. how they behave and look. very facinating i might add. there are a lot of why's poping through my mind. like 'why that girl with the mini-skirt have leggin?' ' why that fat ugly guy with the hot chic?' or 'why that dude driving that sexy car?' yes its hard to understand everyone... but the best v can do is just observe just a sample of the population.
and just know, i got a slap in the face (no literally lah...) there is the classmate of mine that ALWAYS doin homework and constatly pays 1000% attention in the class and i can hardly pays 40% of my attention. i wonder what is the drive behind this human? is it human or robot? finally i found out that hardship at small age makes the person work harder and harder so wont taste the bad times again... and i wonder as i walk back to my place from class, thats exactly the same reason what my mom sent me here for... (now there is the slapping starts) as i hate to admit it, my mom was right, there lots more to life than having fun,partying and stuff like that.she wants me to taste the hardship of life, how people struggle and the value of a dollar.though i know that lots people struggle in life, but tasting it or observe it with your own self its a totally different experience....
p/s: guess i'll be burning the midnight oil...
don't you hate it when you realize that your parents is right? i mean after all that constant arguement and than you realize that they are right? its all started in this morning english class as, the lecturer was explaining bout 'symbols'. as there are various symbol practically for everything.. for example lily can represent death and yellow roses can represent friendship. mayb its just a temporary obsession, but i kinda like all these stuff. i mean i am kinda interested on how the greatest tool that ever created works. the human mind that is. instead am learning on how things that human created works, resistors and all... sigh.
its interesting how a human mind works. i mean i can stay at the mamak stall or coffee house just ponder around for human. how they behave and look. very facinating i might add. there are a lot of why's poping through my mind. like 'why that girl with the mini-skirt have leggin?' ' why that fat ugly guy with the hot chic?' or 'why that dude driving that sexy car?' yes its hard to understand everyone... but the best v can do is just observe just a sample of the population.
and just know, i got a slap in the face (no literally lah...) there is the classmate of mine that ALWAYS doin homework and constatly pays 1000% attention in the class and i can hardly pays 40% of my attention. i wonder what is the drive behind this human? is it human or robot? finally i found out that hardship at small age makes the person work harder and harder so wont taste the bad times again... and i wonder as i walk back to my place from class, thats exactly the same reason what my mom sent me here for... (now there is the slapping starts) as i hate to admit it, my mom was right, there lots more to life than having fun,partying and stuff like that.she wants me to taste the hardship of life, how people struggle and the value of a dollar.though i know that lots people struggle in life, but tasting it or observe it with your own self its a totally different experience....
p/s: guess i'll be burning the midnight oil...
its interesting how a human mind works. i mean i can stay at the mamak stall or coffee house just ponder around for human. how they behave and look. very facinating i might add. there are a lot of why's poping through my mind. like 'why that girl with the mini-skirt have leggin?' ' why that fat ugly guy with the hot chic?' or 'why that dude driving that sexy car?' yes its hard to understand everyone... but the best v can do is just observe just a sample of the population.
and just know, i got a slap in the face (no literally lah...) there is the classmate of mine that ALWAYS doin homework and constatly pays 1000% attention in the class and i can hardly pays 40% of my attention. i wonder what is the drive behind this human? is it human or robot? finally i found out that hardship at small age makes the person work harder and harder so wont taste the bad times again... and i wonder as i walk back to my place from class, thats exactly the same reason what my mom sent me here for... (now there is the slapping starts) as i hate to admit it, my mom was right, there lots more to life than having fun,partying and stuff like that.she wants me to taste the hardship of life, how people struggle and the value of a dollar.though i know that lots people struggle in life, but tasting it or observe it with your own self its a totally different experience....
p/s: guess i'll be burning the midnight oil...
Monday, April 23, 2007
drama mama
scary ar?
shades for play
shades 2
scene from 'broke back hotel'
fooling around during practise
kuku lan something something that its name
wilson shaking it...
cast of ' her 3 days'
inplant fall off
call 012-..........
after everything is done.......recently the whole foundation semester 3 student have to do a drama for their english presentation... it is also for the annual drama festival...
p/s video of the also available at......
class gathering
pe13+pe14
some just good with their poses
it doesn't matter if u r black or white
some just can't get enough of me
and some just wanna touch the soft cheek
corrupting innocent mind that's what i do =)
do-re-mi? 
odova...he is from Somalia..last nite was the class gathering. its a sort of farewell party for all of us as some might leave to cyberjaya and some might stay in melaka.. and even if we stay in cyber or melaka, some of us might not even b in the same class as we have to choose our on majoring. so it is TONS of fun.. its nice to see that everyone just bonded togather.yes FINALLY everyone let everything go just for 1 night and just casually talk with 1another. no bitching, no giving stares. it is NOT that hard after all huh?? i wonder why people need to wait till last nite onli to get along. in the famous words of Martin Luther King, " why can't we all get along?" to be one? to be as class mate? to be nice with one another? to feel like you belong is not that hard. just TALK . its not exactly rocket science.. so everyone come out of their own shell and have a blast.so its all GOOD.
what we do....
- went to US pizza around 730 p.m as everyone gahter there
- food arrive around 8.45? its not bad after all the food there... or am just damn hungry
- suprise Ee lin with a birthday cake, she just arrived from Ipoh
- cam whores... till the shop closes..
- off to SUNSHINE BAR around 1045 or so.... (7cars went) nice place with nice interior... their floor r cool as we can c thru it and underneath its water!!. and it live up to the name 'sunshine' as it is located by the beach side thus we can c the sunshine. too bad we don stay that long
- things get out of hand as one of us got DRUNK!! but its all good as whole class go out and check the drunken person
- arrive my place around 1.30
Sunday, April 22, 2007
being right
everyone always thinks that they are right. no matter what it may be, from their actions to thier words.yes, am no exception too..but the question is..... are we as right as we think we are? yes its a good thing to stick by our own personal opinion and yet again, what IF our own very opinion that we belive so strongly is WRONG?? how do we accept it? with open heart or with denial and still think that we are right?? a few suggetion and i shall stress it is my own personal SUGGESTION(i may be wrong here) is......
- we can start by opening our ears to others opinion.
- get more opinion on that matter
- refer to someone older or have more experience on that matter
- if we are wrong... (this is very hard, trust me) try to digest the fact with our own opinion and don let our personal emotion at that particular moment influence our thought as at that time we might be angry or not contented as we are proven wrong
- last and final step..........................admit it.
admitting take a HUGE courage and guts adn also sense of maturity. so the next time you are in a heated argument, let your guard down and open your ears, being tense and angry is not a solution, yes its ALWAYS easier said than done, especially trying top control something that is unpredictable as our very own emotion, but we still have to try our very best to do so as living in conflict wont do ANYONE good. compromise, give and take- thats how life should be in my own opinion when we live we other people as we cant pleased everyone but we can at least make the best out of it.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
U
You are my sun
The one who brightens my day
You are my hope
The one who encourages my way
You are my addiction
The one who is my drug
You are my blanket
The one who wraps me and makes me feel snug
You are my star
The sparkle in my eyes
You are my moon
The one whose reflection
I see in the skies
You are my inspiration
The one who ignites my creativity
You are my desire
The one who brings out the passion in me
You are my very special friend
The one who I'm always thinking of
You are all of the above
The one with you I fell in love.
true fren test
http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/270616 here if you are free.. feel free to take the test.. thanks... shows how much u know me.
reason for me being thankful
10. U are your best friend.
9. The sense of security i feel by being with u
8. u make me feel loved.
8. u make me feel loved.
7. All the great times V have shared together.
6. When am WITH u, I never feel alone.
5. The sense of completeness I feel with u
4. With your support I feel like I can face or achieve anything.
3. I can be yourself around you.
2. U make me laugh.
1. U love me for who I am
Friday, April 20, 2007
roller coaster week- negative post...
have you ever feel like when u think u almost tasted glory and yet it is been taken away from u? when i've open the exam paper this morning.. my eyes beams brightly as most of it look so so so familiar, and when it comes to the moment of truth, i fall, and fall hard.all i wish now is just to pass the paper. its just like an open goal... and yet i din score.
well nothing is new there... this week have been like that all along.. at 1 moment am like a bird that flying high and as i wanna go higher.... a truck just come know me down and down over and over again.. mayb its karma.. i mean what goes up must come down.. last weekend and monday was wonderful. everything seems perfect even.can spend time with my family, lots of time with my sweetheart,which is longer than normal week, and kept in touch with some frens.eat good food.watch tv most of the time. how can it get any better? as i step out of the house to the bus station and it ALL went wrong. at times, i suprised myself, why i feel like RUBBISH here.why?because am in MELAKA or as known as the town that KILL JULIAN GAN. i do wish to go to a quiet place once, a change of atmostphere.. but the grass don seem greener on the other side. the gamble i took, and the gamble i lost, and the penalty is am stuck for 4 years,hopefully not in MELAKA,but i don see anything changing.
wondering where is the 1 moment of inspiration that i need, like the teddy sheringham goal against bayern munich in the 1999 champion league finals that spark a come back which man u won the match and wrap up a treble.
hope tomorrow's class farewell will bring a droplet of joy to this fallen soul...
well nothing is new there... this week have been like that all along.. at 1 moment am like a bird that flying high and as i wanna go higher.... a truck just come know me down and down over and over again.. mayb its karma.. i mean what goes up must come down.. last weekend and monday was wonderful. everything seems perfect even.can spend time with my family, lots of time with my sweetheart,which is longer than normal week, and kept in touch with some frens.eat good food.watch tv most of the time. how can it get any better? as i step out of the house to the bus station and it ALL went wrong. at times, i suprised myself, why i feel like RUBBISH here.why?because am in MELAKA or as known as the town that KILL JULIAN GAN. i do wish to go to a quiet place once, a change of atmostphere.. but the grass don seem greener on the other side. the gamble i took, and the gamble i lost, and the penalty is am stuck for 4 years,hopefully not in MELAKA,but i don see anything changing.
wondering where is the 1 moment of inspiration that i need, like the teddy sheringham goal against bayern munich in the 1999 champion league finals that spark a come back which man u won the match and wrap up a treble.
hope tomorrow's class farewell will bring a droplet of joy to this fallen soul...
drinking
i might find some new enemy after this post, especially you alcohol lovers out there.but then again its my blog and i am just voicing out what i think.coz i DON fancy ppl drinking. what do ppl drink? a question thats been around my head for quite a while now. some of the ppl say its the "kick" some say "syok" some even say its "cool" especially at our age now..
- personally i don fancy the taste
- it just make my throat go dry
- cooL? then you b just a stupid fool to drink
wake up ppl, we stay is MALAYSIA!! where the tempreture is so HOT. we don live in Russia where they drink to keep themself warm. and you just don NEED to show that you are all grown up by just drinking. you show that you are grown up by taking responsibility. when u drink while driving, you can get into accident, which is WAY....... not cool and not responsible because can cause other ppl's life which u don have the right to take away.
alcohol can easily be bought from the 7-11 or just walk into some chinese shop and they will serve u a bottle of beer as u can c the old china man drinking with their leg on the chair. or you just can go to any local bistro nearby. they don even check your ic, or race so no worries there.
medical research have proven that alcohol is bad for our health, can damaga our liver and we can DIE! it also make us lose control of ourself when we get drunk, which may lead to 1 night stand and that can cause unwanted pregnacy or even HIV. when u r drunk its easier for ppl to take advantage on you. the guys might get robbeb.. there goes the nokia n series.
as for some that say its for the "kick", mayb it can cause a certain ammout of adradelin rush, but think about the bigger picture..the long term effect of drinking.lung, kidney failures. and for the girls that been dreaming of a cute and cubby babies of their own can totally forget it, cause alcohol can have negative effect on your infant.
i've said enough i think.. to drink or not to drink, that is the question. its in the individual's hand to do what they think is the best for themself.
child porn...
came across this website.. http://www.lightamillioncandles.com/ is about a campaign against child pornography. did u know that as young as 3 years old already been in the porn industry and the cyberspace is home to about 1million images of child porn? sickening thought huh? hope u guys would lit a candle for those innocent child. they don't know ANYTHING unlike those adult entertainers. they are young and naive.heck at 3 i doubt they even know a.b.c. so lets come together and give our support to stop child pornography
feel the rain on your skin
julian-thinking
no its not describing the song, have you ever walk in the rain?might be a dumb idea sometimes but then again, its kinda relaxing. take a moment, just walk in the rain without thinking about your cloth3es getting wet, or that mascara getting off or getting ill.just take a moment
other interpretation of rain can be the trouble that each and everyone of us are facing. everyone will say their troubles r serious than others. troubles of life shaped us into who we gonna be next time in life. it educates us. teach us something that the text book cant teach us. all the troubles make us gain experience. we need to taste the experience 1st hand, not through our friends stories or grandparents stories. yes at times life can be cruel, causing heart break,frustration or even anger. no, nobody wants it, but life cant be always b a box of chocolate, i've come to realize. a bad patch do hav its good side too... from there u know who is your foes and also a way to solve problems if it occurs again.
no matter how bad the rain seems, might be with thunder and lightning there is a silver lining in the sky.. maybe someone will show it or sometimes you will realize it your self.its a learning experience,as long as u hang in there... anybody will graduate with a flying colours...everbody can make it thru the rain and " whenever when your heart about to break,remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistake"
Thursday, April 19, 2007
i have a bad year
some have asked why this blog seems to be emo or looks like something is wrong. well it all started in June 06, when i step into MMU and from there onward i've been like north korea, closed with any connection from the world. i do have a bad feeling bout coming here. after so many persuasion and yet am still here and soon which is next month i will seating for my finals and then, i've completed my foundation. doin something like engineering which am not into, and not pirsuing my childhood and lifetime dream of being a pilot do make me wanna :
am telling u my blue skies fade to gray
am telling u my passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
am stand in the line just to hit a new low
am faking a smile with the Milo i go
am telling u you my life's been way off line
am falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Because you had a bad year
am taking one down
i sing a sad song just to turn it around
much of a reason that make it hard to settle down is because maybe i just don click with them, as in classmates and most of the ppl here. although it is interesting to see view from ppl that come from all walk of life, it just sometimes just the conflict of attitude i guess.
and its hard to stay alone. i mean u need to experience it yourself to know how it feel. leaving alone on yourself in a place that u hardly know, and you need to do everything by yourself.and at times u do feel lonely unlike college where after a long day u just go back home, and no matter how annoying u r sibling can get, at least u can hav joy of making their life a living hell.plus being here without ANY of familiar faces also make it tougher. for example, most ppl probably go australia have their siblings or frens or church member that go to the same university or at leat live nearby.being here, there is no familiar faces in the 150km radius.
tho there r some plus side of being here.. the most clear 1 is at least i can know who is the real fren and who is wearing the mask and been waiting the chance to poke me and bitch around. yes sadly guys do bitch around but i doubt they are guys since the talk behind my back. i am thankful for those who are not so close to me at school and yet still remember me and also thankful for those who are close and finally show their colour.and am also very gretful that she is back in my life again...
whats been waiting for me i don really know..... mayb there is still twist in the plot of my story, it all lay on the Greatone's hand. yes the man up stair.i've plan a lot for my life but HE decides.
am telling u my blue skies fade to gray
am telling u my passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
am stand in the line just to hit a new low
am faking a smile with the Milo i go
am telling u you my life's been way off line
am falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Because you had a bad year
am taking one down
i sing a sad song just to turn it around
much of a reason that make it hard to settle down is because maybe i just don click with them, as in classmates and most of the ppl here. although it is interesting to see view from ppl that come from all walk of life, it just sometimes just the conflict of attitude i guess.
and its hard to stay alone. i mean u need to experience it yourself to know how it feel. leaving alone on yourself in a place that u hardly know, and you need to do everything by yourself.and at times u do feel lonely unlike college where after a long day u just go back home, and no matter how annoying u r sibling can get, at least u can hav joy of making their life a living hell.plus being here without ANY of familiar faces also make it tougher. for example, most ppl probably go australia have their siblings or frens or church member that go to the same university or at leat live nearby.being here, there is no familiar faces in the 150km radius.
tho there r some plus side of being here.. the most clear 1 is at least i can know who is the real fren and who is wearing the mask and been waiting the chance to poke me and bitch around. yes sadly guys do bitch around but i doubt they are guys since the talk behind my back. i am thankful for those who are not so close to me at school and yet still remember me and also thankful for those who are close and finally show their colour.and am also very gretful that she is back in my life again...
whats been waiting for me i don really know..... mayb there is still twist in the plot of my story, it all lay on the Greatone's hand. yes the man up stair.i've plan a lot for my life but HE decides.
appreciation
do we as human appreaciate what around us? some might say yes or some no...as a normal human we do have our flaws sometimes and one of it might be not appreciating what we have till its totally gone.for example painter's art work like van goth only worth millions of dollars when he is dead. why? do we even appreciate on how our parents strive just to get the meal on the table or our loved ones that we know will stand by our side even if we did something wrong or even how our friends help us from the little thing such as cary our books for us. all the liltle things DOES matter and what more can i say bout bigger things. but sadly not ALL of us appreciate what we do have.we tend to take advantage on others instead of appreciating it.classic example is we take advantage on our parents trust to let us out during the night and we come back home half sober from zouk or masion at 3-4 a.m. tho our parents will just nag a lilttle, we keep on doin it over and over and over again as if they wont mind. of coz ANY parents would worry for the safety of their child as in their eye, you might still be their little boy or lilttle girl.
like back on the previous post, appreciation comes when we put priority. which is closest to our heart. tho the ranking is different for EVERYONE, like some will put their frens ahead than their family, as a result of that,they will appreciate their friends more than their own flash and blood.
its hard to be satisfied in our life, thus lead to us not appreciating what we trully have, a millioniare wont be satisfied with his/her 1st million they probabaly 1 more and more.all the everthing seems not improtant since their main priority is the money.famillies, health and stuff like that seem like a small thing for them. untill the money is gone, then only they will start realizing what is trully important and that gonna last with them for the longest time.
appreciate what you have, don wait till it is really gone coz the chances of it coming back to u is very very slim. good nite
like back on the previous post, appreciation comes when we put priority. which is closest to our heart. tho the ranking is different for EVERYONE, like some will put their frens ahead than their family, as a result of that,they will appreciate their friends more than their own flash and blood.
its hard to be satisfied in our life, thus lead to us not appreciating what we trully have, a millioniare wont be satisfied with his/her 1st million they probabaly 1 more and more.all the everthing seems not improtant since their main priority is the money.famillies, health and stuff like that seem like a small thing for them. untill the money is gone, then only they will start realizing what is trully important and that gonna last with them for the longest time.
appreciate what you have, don wait till it is really gone coz the chances of it coming back to u is very very slim. good nite
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
priorities
where is our priority? in the sense of do we put our family first or frens?or even gf/bf if we have one.its more like a tug of war.especially if we wan to please everyone. tho sometimes we want to be at two places at one particular time, but sadly we CANT. so who we choose?? basically i have no idea too.do you? of course we would put family first. but what would happen if we have a not very understanding friend or gf/bf ( thank God i don). it would totally ruin our time with our family. normally the tug of war will b between frens and bf/gf. some fren would stick to you like a glue and wont give even 10 minutes for you 2 love birds have your own time and some gf/bf wont give a time for you to bond with your buddies, your hommies or your "girlfrens". its hard to find the perfect balance, its not like some formula 1 car where you can adjust the aerodynamic with just a twist of the wrench. life is simple... but its not sometimes..
friends..
what is really friendship? maybe you all can help me with this question. cause i seem confuse with it. of cause we heard of a fren in need is a fren is deed, those ppl that stick with u during the storm whether and share your joy and pain. but all that seems like a fairytale to me... but i do witness real friends around.
do you share EVERYTHING with your fren? i mean there is also boundary between friends right? no matter how close you are there are still things that you just don interfere. thing called privacy. for example, matters that related to your friend's family, belief, religion or your fren's relationship may it b their gf or bf. things like this, you just have to keep your distant and respect each and every decision that your fren made and give your honest opnion or advice only if you are asked to give one or need to give one.
other thing i witness is, how one can cherish a friendship.they don mind been taken advantage, or abused. it amaze me how much patient that person actually have to tolerate all the non sense.but than again, if they are friends, it won't be taking advantage, it is called making favors, tho sometimes it seems 1 sided.
does real friends show that they are much more superior than others? in what ever way lah.. or is it just guys ego to show that they are better than others?which i find its RUBBISH.why must we show that we are superior? a great man don need any introduction,others will talk abaout him.1 question my friends, would you throw away years of friendship just to show that are better than your good fren?
real frens is like a soilder, they never leave their man behind.well, if you caught your self in such situation, run! run fast. there are lots of ppl around that would want to be your fren.with an open an sincere heart, anyone would find a fren..and a true one!
do you share EVERYTHING with your fren? i mean there is also boundary between friends right? no matter how close you are there are still things that you just don interfere. thing called privacy. for example, matters that related to your friend's family, belief, religion or your fren's relationship may it b their gf or bf. things like this, you just have to keep your distant and respect each and every decision that your fren made and give your honest opnion or advice only if you are asked to give one or need to give one.
other thing i witness is, how one can cherish a friendship.they don mind been taken advantage, or abused. it amaze me how much patient that person actually have to tolerate all the non sense.but than again, if they are friends, it won't be taking advantage, it is called making favors, tho sometimes it seems 1 sided.
does real friends show that they are much more superior than others? in what ever way lah.. or is it just guys ego to show that they are better than others?which i find its RUBBISH.why must we show that we are superior? a great man don need any introduction,others will talk abaout him.1 question my friends, would you throw away years of friendship just to show that are better than your good fren?
real frens is like a soilder, they never leave their man behind.well, if you caught your self in such situation, run! run fast. there are lots of ppl around that would want to be your fren.with an open an sincere heart, anyone would find a fren..and a true one!
wats up? top 5
its been a while since i blog..mayb some might wonder whats up with julian these days. some might think 'he's dead' or some might ask why is he quiet these days... well generally
- my finals are coming in 3 weeks.. if i do alright den most probably i would be shifting to cyberjaya campus in june.currently at melaka doin my foundation in engineering
- got applied maths quiz tomorrow and the test this saturday which mean i cant go back to KL
- sick of bothering bout the conflict of interest between the ppl in my class..( if you all can't click, just move on lah...) stuff which i find is stupid i don wanna get drag into.
- looking forward till my finals finish than it will b oh holy holy holiday.
- not forgetting the BURNING question which lots ppl asked. yes i am with Ashley Chin, if any of you don like it too bad.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
welcome- a NOt friendly one
1st post of the new blog. 1st i would like to welcome ya'll but i don welcome
- backstabbing ass-**** you know who you all are
- spammers
- those who try to irriatte me- try harder pls
- those who try to make me feel bad- try harder also
- fake ppl that love to act a tele novela in front of me
- those who love to judge
though the list MIGHT go on.... but the rest are welcome. would like to apologise in advance if i might hurt anybody's feeling but i wanna be as frank as possible, if you don't like can always GO...
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