Michelle Chong..

my lansi pose

the book of love

why do people get involve in a relationship? some get involve due to peer pressure, some get involve coz they love the idea of other people liking them, some are just desperate,some just wanna play with others heart, but for me, i get involve because i found the person that i care a LOT, and i belive that she would b a perfect soulmate for me. ,its just the feeling, the feeling that u get if u know a person for a LONG time. you don need to be close to know someone, you could observe them from far or could chose to approach them, but all of this takes time. "love takes time" - mariah carey

why people want a relationship? i don think if people "wants" it. it just come naturally due to the spark and attraction form both parties. it could b physical or inner beauty attraction, but that all depends on the individual. having a relationship, do have its up and down, but if its genuine, it could lift u higher and makes you achieve in life, its a some kinda brand new happiness that you cant acheive thru friendship or family love.

desperation could make people to do crazy stuff. i mean some would kill them self due to a fail relationship, some would fake pregnancy to sustain the relationship. i mean i know a school where almost all the guy and girl have been with each other, its like they mix and match, this is no hollywood! plus if we keep on exchanging partner, it kinda take the meaning out of the word, "i love u", which been thrown easily. i find that very shallow.

people try lots of way to get into a relationship, some would try so hard to approach a girl till they would hav fantasies bout the girl, and the girls on the other hand, would "sell" off their body, with constant flirting, or the winking of the eyes, that are sign of trying too hard or just plain cheap. some would b hostile to apply the " also long as she/he not married i still have chance" but do they ever think of the outcome? if u stole other people gf/bf its can happen to u too... its karma. what goes around comes around. but then again these are all people's opinion on things. nobody would learnt till it happens to them, i mean not only in relationship, it apply in real life too. because life really can b a harsh teacher for all of us.

now, am facing the greatest test of r resistance of all, the mother of all test, and also the grandfather of all test. Long distant relationship. its not gonna b easy. today i know 1 of my fren fails, tho am not sure what have happened, but its not really a vote of confidence. but then again, nobody decide a relationship, but the couple. its the relationship between 2 of God's creation, so only both of them could decide what would happen, what could happen and what might happen. so my decision is.......... to stick, stick with the one i love, coz i can really see a future with this wonderful girl. Ashley Chin Tien-ni

once my dad's fren who is a sea captain once said " in a boat, riding the wave is the most fun part" so i guess am riding this 3 years "wave" which is gonna b full of ups and down, till i reach my wonderful paradise of a destination, full with rainbow. an island paradise.

a day of reflection

the ending of the weekday this week have been disastorus for me. especially friday, probably one of the worst day of my life. the worst exam in my life, was that night, i am never this NOT prepared to ANY exam in my life. at about the same time, she told me she is leaving. yes its a good thing that she leave in her education and future prospect, but... sigh..

so today, i decide to go and pray, after a miserable few days i had, mayb its time to pray. plus, its the time of the year that we go and pay respect in the loving memories of our loved one. i followed my mom and sister to go pray for my late grandfahter and uncle. tho they are buddist, and am christian, i don really mind, taking the joystick and pray a bit. i mean, am sure, God would understand that am doin it for the sake of my grandfather and uncle. its great to live in this country where there are lots of races, lots we can learn. tho some would discriminate other races, which is WRONG, tho some ppl, just deserve the discrimination. any hoo... i do feel a bit better after praying. after asking for guidance and blessing, my family and i, minus my brother who busy golfing, went to the EON showroom, to check out the new proton. it looks alright i guess, tho some of the interior kinda, not very the nice.and am suprise to learnt that the fuel consumtion of the car, which is 1.6 is way less than the MYvi, which is 1.3.

and yesterdaY, saturday, i went out to see my old frnes. tho they bugged me to go out during my hols... its a bit akward to hang with them again since its been a while since i see them, but to my suprise, we could still talk for hours, and another big suprise, one of them would stay near or at cyberia on 27th august.

bite more than i can chew..

tick tock tick tock, my watch ticking. today, tonight, my fail theory exam.. no its not field theory, its fail theory. meant to fail. its HARD.. no matter how many time i read it, i still stuck.. but, most of the time i read it, my mind seems to fly away else where. its really a problem to focus when u got tons on u r mind.

i think i wanna eat more than i can chew. i have to many goals to approach. imagine a partical that have too many force acting on it.. or a paper where have too many hands pulling it.. in the end i realize that i don move at all.. stationary. stuck. i wish to narrow it down. but somehow it all seems important to me. its my battle against time. so many to do and that i wanted, but not enough time. sigh..

NO WOMAN NO CRY

I THINK, DRINKING = SMOKING= DRUGS, ALL ARE BAD FOR U. AND THOSE WHO TAKE IT ARE FOOLS. THANK YOU. AND GOOD NIGHT.

100th post!!.. OH..holiday.. where art thau...

the shadow of your smile

AM .................BACk!!!!!!!!!

AND THE CROWD GOES WILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................

Tho am very sleepy right now.... i guess i will go on and on and on bout my hols.. coz there will b a stupid exam on friday and nexy monday by MMU (mesti mau ujian). is really a pain. i still don get it with the exams and exams and ass-sign-ment.really kacau lah...

back to the hols.... first stop....

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  beserah, kuantan

yes its the holiday that everyone been waiting for.everyone as in those who went. some fight for it, some work hard for it, some just drag their butt for it. regardless how we go, we went there. there are 8 of us. ashley, me, vinod, nisha,sheu jeen, shaun, oazir and i wish i could forgotten, sithira.

its a really arkward holiday i first tot. coz i don really know MOST of them. but i guess after i let my guard down, and sceptism go.. its alright i guess. i mean its the beach, how ANYONE would not have fun at the beach. even if the main objective of the holiday is to spend some lovely time with my ashley, i guess at the same time i get to know MORE people. its the situation like life is a box of chocolate thing. lots of suprises. like i don expect to even be holiday-ing with certain people, but i guess how much things have change.

tho normally i would go to the beach to reflect myself,i mean with all the windy breeze of the sea, can b really relaxing, but this time its kinda noisy.i guess being open to certain kinda changes will do you good.as my love affair with the beach date way back since when i 1st went to a beach.. it still continue today

well back to the trip.its kinda a bit suprising with them. i mean they are like really really come from the city.to paint the picture, we had mamak twice!! all the way to kuantan for mamak? for me i guess i would b like them too IF i was brought up like them. but being at the east coast, which is kinda near to my home town, the place there kinda simliar to my area, the food, the people.

day 1:

went early and guess what i saw??!! mr chin sleeping in the couch, its mrs chin birthday that day too. but i guess she its too early for her to notice me i guess.so we went to shaun hse after picking up sheu jeen. off we go to pudu raya. fond memories i have of that place. where i took bus to melaka for a year. thing which i don wish to repeat. being typical puduraya, the black smoke fills up u r lungs and ppl harrast u for tickets.at 9, we board the bus, and off we are to kuantan.most of us are kinda quiet in the bus, till we reach karak, and the bus going at turtle pace, when some of us decide to laugh their butt off.we got a stern stare from the driver.lots of ppl sleep. so it kinda boring for me, its either they are sleeping or looking at trees and hills. till the bus was stopped by a JPJ, everyone got up. a few minutes later, we stop at the R&R center. we resume our journey to kuantan. there is saw, University malaysia pahang. no its not so grand or famous as other premier university, but there is where one of my fren at. aizat. too bad i don drive. or else i would drop by and sent my hi. we arrived, kuatan around 2. no its not a metropitan city like KL. there is no huge malls or restaurant. most of the restaurant are all family run, and there are small stalls selling keropok or goreng pisang and all other of their local delicacy.it does look interesting tho.. even if it don look hygenic, but since when good food are fancy and healthy rite? we ate a&w for lunch.

a&w

we took the cab to our hotel. tho its not what am expected, but the place was alright. tho i have to admit its kinda give me the spook. we settle down a bit. unpack and rest a bit after the long hours on the bus. after that, we head off to the beach.played a bit in the sand. the current at th beaech was kinda strong i have to say. there even red flags to indicate if its safe to swim. after tired day, we decide to go dinner, after a long day. we go to this place acall alif, a mamak stall. had a cold nasi bryiani, which was heated up by micorwave oven. not satisfied, me and the guys decide to go for burger castello.its basically ramli burger lah... tho i have to say its GOOood. i mean its ramli burger.. its always good. we ran, and sang christmas song( don ask me why). as it was raining. luckly the rain was just a while so all of us went back and talk and play some card. tho the topic of the conversation is kinda interesting... the girls asked the guy questions that they cant and don dare to ask any other guy. we played card, tho its get boring after a while. and burn marshmellow with candle!! we kinda look like some drug addict with the candle.

am out!

day 2:

everyone woke up around 10? by the time we arrived to the buffet area, most of the food kinda gone. but we make most out of what we got. i found that most of them like old people, coffee addict! anyhoo.. we went back to the room after breakfast, as some of us need to crap, yes need to shit. went to sleep at the seat by the beach while enjoying the breeze, walk a bit by the beach, under the hot afternoon sun. i was a bit dizzy. when lunch time, its hard for us to get food, we tried the restaurant that was reconmmended by some guy who wanted to offer us outdoor activites, but they are not open for business. thus, alif again... the scorhing heat and hot sun apparently take the toll out of some of us. headache,sleepy, moody are some of the reaction. things are a bit better after lunch. but sadly nisha got allergy and her eyes was swollen. and vinod have to bring her to the doctor. the beach is caling my name, its my time. the david hasselholf inspired run by the beach and the dive breaking the wave was wonderful.too bad nobody wanna get burried.

pond outside the room

i went to return the towels as the rest getting ready for dinner.. so i decide to take a lil walk alone to the beach. i was hoping to catch the sun set, but sadly, tis on the opposite side... so there i was seating of a log, making a wish while some tourist go on a horse ride.i do hope my wish would come true. at that moment when the cold breeze from the sea blowing my face, and the and sand that goes thru between my toes... yes thats the moment when u feel u r alive.

we went to this restaurant called yala. they basically serve thai food..and there where we met

miow miow the pussy..

as we return to our room, its obvious all the excietment making everyone exhausted. slept very early tat nite around 10?

day 3:

the last day.. a bit heavy hearted to leave but i guess all good thing must come to an end. the hotel kinda generous with their breakfst this time, since they don have the buffet no more, we can order ala carte. after packing, amd checking out, we decide to go to the beach to pass our time, since the bus at 6. the girls was writting some messege and putting it in a bottle..

lee sheu jeen the type writer

its coz all of them are leaving to further their studies, so they wil b in different part of the world. so its kinda a sad thing.. we also decide to go on our final lap on the beach. before going back, snap some pic too...

summer breeze

toes to toes and hand to hand

if picture wasn't perfect, i dono what is


hold tight!!! when u say forever, i belive

thats all folks... wish u were here

mid term break.

announcement *ahem ahem*





due to my itchy hands, so i deleted on of my draft post. so this shall b offically my 99th post.


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so today is the last day before the 1 week mid term break.. thing this morning is fine.. i finished my Ck2 experiment, in just about 1 and a half hour? but due to my urge of goin back.. i went back withouot getting my 2 marks.. (damn!!) i din go consult the lecturer, for on spot evaluation. and by the time i realize that, its TOooooooooo late. now am waiting for all the monkeys to get their stuff ready before heading to Cineleisure for my much anticipated movie..

z simpson......

cant belive am watching it with them... tho there is NOTHING wrong watchin with them. it just.. nvm.. anyways how do i start my hols weekend.........? herm.. interesting question.

• to many suprise.. am NOT going to PD tomorrow anymore. cancelled the trip.. instead i will b...............

packing my files and notes to study tomorrow on a SATURDAY!!!!!! damn sad rite? especially the first day of hols.. so will my SUNDAY.... boy how "happening" is my break is.. while i know some of my frens would b.......

• eating for hours at seoul garden buffet
• goin to the Kukup Island trip
• studying at kedah ( no not yee kean)
• goin back to their home town
• playing futsal
• having some holy meal
• celebrating their 3rd year anni

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oh well... since the monkeys are almost ready, i guess i would be getting ready my notes and make sure my room in a tip top condition. this is the first time am goin out with them around KL. so i guess i need to be a good host. even tho my knee cap is hurting and my stomach is growling....

till then, happy holidays everyone. hope you'll have a GREAT time, let it b with ur frens or u r family. its time for all of u to tighten the bond with all of them as most of us here in MMU, don't stay at home with our family. of course there will b a conflict of interest, as we are used to do what ever we like, such as go out at what ever time, or bathe at what ever time, guess thing will b different at home, my advice is to be patient. thing of ALL the good home cook meals! God bless!! goodbye room.. hello books and astro.

quote of the day.. " today won't come again tomorrow, grab all the chances you have today!!"