life is a book...

so as i read the star online today, i bump into the main page, where long awaited jet star airlines the subsidery company of qantas.. is gonna operate at our own klia, where they already have operate in singapore for quite a while now. this is a good news for the average joes, like me who wanted to see the world, but the flight ticket taking a chunk out of my saving.. the reduction of for about 30-50% from the full course carrier it totally an attractive price, i shall wait till air asia X is launch in september to get the rate, to machester... tomorrow more routes will b announce, so i shall wait for the wonderful news before i start saving...( wai luen!! get me a job pls? ). this is maybe a start of foreign budget airlines to tap into the malaysian market.. now am wondering IF ryan air.. that operate in europe would make a trip to our lil ole, malaysia. am sure 1 day it will happen as the government argessive move to promote, the country. and i belive that the governement will give in to air asia request to open the route to chang gi airport as it would generate almost 12 million ringgit to the company revenue yearly.

quote if the day

"life is a book,those who don't travel only read a page of it"

virginity...

its a very sensitive issue especially among girls.. virginity can be very important but tot the minority, its NOT so important. thats why we have so lil porn star.. anyways back to the topic. girls or female, loses their virginity normally to that someone special, or it can b by accident too... for example thru injury like sport related.

the question is, will losing virginity cause one, to change their atitude? i mean if u lose your virginity to guy A but in the end things don work out, will the girl change and turn into some wild party animal that goes party almost every night, or weekend. letting all the guys or most of the guys touch them? though, it look and sound cheap, but i think it DOES happen. they probably thing they lose it all already so what if let other guys touch. some might react that way, some might go into severe depression of losing their virginity.

virginity can b a very sensitive issue, just try any girl if they are a still a virgin, i bet you gonna get a mark of their fingers on u r face. mayb its very private, and its not a very proud thing to lose your virginity, unless you are all stable in the relationship or u r married. so the lesson to learn here is,

• girls, be careful who u gave it up too, coz it just come once in your life


• boys, make sure you will stick by her for the rest of your life if u are gonna take it away from her. and not just of plain lust. its a responsiblity and its the girl's sacrifce.


• and the last is, play safe..

the road not taken

empty

transition period. mayb thats what am facing all this while, since uni start, things are not really as lovely like the old days. the 1 year stint at melaka, and now the 4 years stint at cyberjaya..guess, i never really trully settle down. my studies, life style. din really find the perfect balance of stud and having fun time, without facing bump along the way.. like someday i have lab, so i need go back early, sometimes, my parents complain bout me goin out too much. sometimes, there nobody to go out with.

lots of friends have change during the course. i mean, the good thing bout it is, at least i can see their true colours, but on the other hand, i kinda think what a waste of all the good time all of US had. at times i just wanna go back with a vengence and sometimes i just feel tired of holding grudges.. this is MY main problem.. not bout them all.. it is i cant decide what i wanted in any matter.

its middle of the year, and i think the next half of the year, things will change too

• first, next month, Malaysia will turn 50, and Ashley who have been my pillar for the last 6 month, will receive her result whether she will b leaving to further her studies.. i really don wan her to go, but the move seems already confirm, she is a smart girl and am sure she will make the grade. and for her future point of view, i guess its good for her to go.but from my point of view it is bad. AGAIN, am stuck in to between to choices which i cant decide


• and as planned i will b moving to bukit tinggi at the end of the year. i dowan to say goodbye to bangsar. everything here seems nice. i mean its so easy and convinient, and i can easily to walk and the people i know is mostly here. so i wont b able order food at chinese stall, in english, instead i have to use chinese, which am not good at. and i will b surrounded by LALA's which are eye sores. and i need wake up at least 2 hours earlier if i wanted to go to mid V, because it will b 30 minutes away but all depends on the traffic. instead of the 5 minutes drive to mid V now, or the 10 minutes walk.


• my grades are just lack of a few point from letting me applying cadet pilot position at top airlines company, thus i need to wait for 4 years and hopefully my grade will b up to the standard

what a fella need to do to get things his way? i wont know what actually might happen.. but all those 3 things just seems unavoidable. i shall go study now. i know the ONLY way is to up my grades, than only i could consider NY, LONDON or SYDNEY. by 2009 i hope..

****thin pong ngo ho ma****

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sweetness, harry porter and dinners, weekend- in review

mr.useless...

my friday started badly. i have lab on that morning, as usual, i woke up early around 745, but my laziness go into me and i slept, till i woke up at 850, 10 minutes till lab time.. sigh.. so i rush to the lab, at lab, i got this literally useless fella... all he know to say is, " can i see your reading ar?" as a partner, at least contribute a bit? instead of reading the lab manual... if you cant make yourself useful also, at least try to "look" useful?

friday nite was a total different story,like a 180 degree turn.. went for dinner at delicious, and one of the most memorable, nite ever, its so comfortable. its our 6th month actually, but kinda celebrate it early as i cant b back for the weekends due to academic commitment. 3 exams in a row before hols.. sigh.. but i shall b looking foward to the beach side IF its happen..

saturday was harry porter day.. the book was released and i went watch the movie. went early.reach mid V around 10, and yet the line already LONG, and when i was half way in the line the 11am show was sold out. catch the 12 pm show, luckly they open 2 hall for it. porter was ok i guess.. din really pay attention.. i went back early as my mom nag me home to fetch my cousin.she just got married on 7th 7july 07. she was with her husband. so we go to chillis for dinner with my family except for my dad who was overseas working. i saw steffi zayn, stefan sister. we accidentally come out of the washroom at the same time, i din notice that she was seating right infront of my table..

sunday was the kinda slow.. have late breakfast as my cousin woke up late.. so we went to MV before they go back.i was kinda nervous to ask my mom if i can go out, but i know i wont b back till 2 weeks time, so i have to take my chances. apparently, lady luck was on my side, my mom let. so i drove off to Bangsar Baru, hoping to an encore of that friday nite... tho time are limited, still it is lovely..

so thats my weekend i guess.. 3 exam is coming up next week before my hols.. my hols is on 6th til 12 august...

live to proof

life is SO full of challenges.. no matter who you are, you always face with bumps along the road. like my fren once said " if you fight with life, life always win".

my life too sometimes have lots of obstecle that i need to face. mayb some would look at me as problem free and my life is just like perfect. but that is so far from it. mayb am expecting too much for perfection or i get less than i deserve

from small.. lots ppl think am pampered as i was the youngest.. even my sibling hate it when i get the special treatment from my parents. i took a lot of jibe along the way too. and now, even if my mom would wanna help me a bit, others would think am spoilt and being too pampered. sigh.. so its HARD to be the youngest. people would underestimate you, sayin u cant do this and that because got others do it for you. yes thats how i been brought up. so thats why am determaint to prove lots of the people who love to run their mouth.

i work extra hard always at school and was playful too..the sad part is, my parents only see the playful part of me. so i put that aside as i got immune to their nagging. so with ALL the big eaxm like UPSR or PMR os SPM.. there is always critic hittin especially when the result day. during my UPSR my dad thinks i play too much of FIFA, even during the exam period i still play the game that i play everytime i am back from school.. but thats ok as i just missed out 1 A from a perfect score. a day before, my PMR result is out, i still remember my mom down play my chances. she goes like "if u get 2A's also enough already" ouch that hurt.. but what am i suppose to do? but smile and go to sleep so the ersult day would come faster. i mean, i always tought that my mom would support me, be the pillar in what i do..that nite is one of those night that i will never forget. the next day i saw my BM teacher smiling and congrat me as she gave me my result. the anger from the previous night now turn into ego.. who could blame me if am been treated that way. as i walk into the house, i gave my dad the result slip and walk into the room, my face was emotionless.. my mom who was talking to my aunty because her son too took the exam, well.. she just called to see how bad i did... so i did silent everyone. feel like showing everone the silent sign. i went on to play my computer game, as i pretend that its no big deal, in my heart i jump for joy as i silent everyone who love to run their mouth and never belive in me.am on top of the world and am happy. soon all the family member knows, once they looked at me like useless mommy boy who cant do anything at all.. now i do hope i could silent them. then come form 4. i struggled especially the new subject, add math. i was so frustrated i actually threw the book across the living hall.. and when the test result is out, i failed miserably. never fail befoer in my life, and this is the first. this effect all my result too. and again, the critic hit again.my dad even "TRY" to motivate me,he is SO very confident that i cant make the grade during SPM even make a deal of 1k for an A. which i don take it seriously and take it more of an insult. but den again, mayb this is my chance to finally give to them the sign "put up or shut up", because am sick of poeple telling me they gonna do this and that if i get the grade. as the result out, tho its NOT as great as my friends, but in my paernts book it is good enough..so once again i prove them wrong.. being cocky.. i said " i wan nothing" when i was asked wat i want for my reward. its a reason for me being cock, it is because to save my tarnish pide during those difficult time when i fail, when i try to walk and yet i fall.... i remember my physics teacher once told me " if u don fail before, you never know what is success, only way to taste REAL success is when u fail and you rise up again, STRONGER"

now i still need to prove to my parents. at times am tired of it..mayb now am tired of it, but somehow i still feel oblighte it, mayb it's because how i been brought up. the atmosphere and the surrounding. what happens maybe shaped me for i am today.it might take a while to get it back, the spirit to fight and work even harder, and this time, its time to bring back the past...

na-na-na-na

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