If You Don't do it, You Don't Really Believe it. Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Malaysia decides- its me

election is tomorrow,lots of rumours and sentiment have been spread around. lots of propaganda, lots of conflict, lots of issue, like the freedom of air space in malaysia, to the increasing of oil price, to the old wound that have been opened up to a certain ex political figure in the newpaper by ex co worker.my gut feeling tells me instead of focusing on the traditional battle of winning kelantan back, the penang state too, seems like the opposition have a very strong campaign going on.but den again, everthing will b unvield tomorrow.

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this post more bout my home town, to be more specific, the town that i was born in.rubbish the tot of KL kid or what ever, well some or maybe most might just know, my kampung at kelantan, but i don think i ever mention bout Kuala Krai do i?this is where i start my journey to life, and till now how all of u know me now.though many have different perspective, coz they don really know me, some even think am on the dean's list, which i find its rubbish though i wish i am on the list, what ever u all think, well, this is who i am and where am from..



well, during the chinese new year break, i got a chance to walk and visit all the old places again, heck after 10 years. 1998 i leave the town and now its 2008 finally i can slowly have a stroll down memory lane.


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this is my first old house, it seems a lot nicer in the pic wen i was in my mom's belly, i remember the year i was born, it was the year that a big flood occur. but den sadly, the people that live there don mantain it nicely anymore. well lots of fond memories here at the house, from my first words, my first bedtime story, first day of school to my first time pee on the bed =P



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as i walk that day around the field, it leads me to the playground.this playground is just in front of my house.at the same time i saw some kids playing the swing, it just like how me and my friends used to play. growing up being the only chinese family around the neighbourhood,i don feel its weird playing and having malay friends, i dono bout other states, but wen i came to KL, there are the gap between the 2 races, racial chant are everywhere, names like pig are thrown everywhere.which is very hard and sad to know.not denying the fact that i got more racial along the year.here, even the chinese look like malay.

one last slide down?



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Mooooo


the old trafford of the yester-year...

the field, the green grass, is the first thing everyone sees wen they get out of the house, and during the early morning, it feels so fresh to breathe in those fresh air.d huge field is the place to be in the evening for football.its just nice to see everyone mingle around instead wen in KL, wen u go back home u just see the neighbours door, and some don even know their neighbour.

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my kindergarten, no its not strawberry hills, or tadika chong or what ever. i remember to be the only person and the only non-muslim here and worst of all, the only one with shorts!!! child expoiltation i tell u, with that sexy legs revealing. heheheheh..of course i remember the time at the zoo and all those road trips.. and only lucky few only saw the pics. and of course the graduation at the big hall at the nearby politechnic skool. and i lost a friend too, he passed away wen i got back from my 1 month stay at singapore,the sad part is, before i left, we played my toy car 2gather, thats the only memories i remembered.

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where christiano j..... i mean where i kick football around

moved to a bigger house. mayb during standard 2? am not too sure, but i remember lots of work have been done to make the house better, lots of pak cik came every evening after work to do some work, its a nice house, even have 2 gardener. and one of them is the utility man.i remember how my mom loves our garden. there are also dogs, that come sometimes that i feed them. the house have a badminton hall behind it, and the tennis court front of it, this is where Zang Toi's dad used to play.the bad part is, there snakes. there are twice since snake in the house and while i was having a kick of the football, i saw some snake skin. scary. but on one night, my dad got a phone call from his friends from HQ, kl, saying the canadian consultant for the company wants him to come to KL to work with them, i guess the rest is history.but looking at the condition of house now, its kinda pathetic due to the poor mantainces of the new tenant




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the badminton hall,also one of the town's multipurpose hall. lots of function been held here, from band to weddings. my dad got his friends outside of ktm to sponsor it, and now it belongs to the sport club.my uncle plays badminton here always every nite, this is where my brother used to train too, it just at the back of my 2nd house, and for me? this is where i try out my so called BMX tricks out side the hall, at those gravel road in red u see in the pic, and yes, i do get my face flat on the ground quite often, and bruises too..oh well,do wish to play badminton here someday,mayb to beat my brother or uncle.




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the town.the town center is smaller than any other town, like ipoh, taiping, bukit katil, kangar, banting or any other town, its small and less maju too. no tesco, giant or anything. the town's economy is based on oil palm and timber, yes there are lots of tauke balak around but lots have go burst due to the economic melt down in 98.but now there a lil improvement and development i suppose.
kelantanese love their lifestyle, if BN should win and for sure there are development, thus it wont be kelantan no more, no more peaceful and quiet, but den again, the state do need some development, thus, let kelatanese decide what they want.


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Thursday, March 6, 2008

happy-ness

working on my tut after class earlier have make me realise something.this weird feeling just struck me. it makes me happy looking at the smiles on others face.some with meeting their fellow country man/woman, some just having laughter with frens, and some so called "housemate" which obviously appear as an item, it just plain sweet to see everyone is happy especially those couples, although sometimes its annoying due to some PDA or manja-ing moment, but i get i envy them i mean, its a good kinda of envy. envy that everyone looking sweet and at the same time having the smile on each of their faces just make me happy for them although i dono all of those ppl that i saw, and yet, those carving on the faces says it all.. its like when ur fren got an offer to study overseas, of course u would envy them,but its a good kinda of envy and the most important of all, the same time u are glad for them.. these are some of the people that i "envy" and happy for them



this is erica, went holiday at fontana de trevi at rome with her boyfriend. think was last year. being able to travel so far in such a romantic country, heck wont anyone wants it?shows how much their relationship have blossom.

syahirah, she was the one that always late to get up at camp.wen been asked whats been buggin, its the fact that her bf leaving for holland to further his study and she cant spend time with him. i guess after a long time LDR (long distant relationship) she went to holland to visit him, and the best part of all, they went on a eurotrip, from holland to belgium to france and london.how lucky can one get?


Wednesday, March 5, 2008

gift of heart


it says it all?
enough volts and current to kill...


with of experiment like this, how can i NOT fear for my life? thus... i decided to.....


donate my ogran :P

i was just kidding. donating organ was one of my things to do in life. i mean, coming from a person that have done lots and lots of bad stuff, its something i think the least i can do to give back. plus having lots of chances being taken away from me, thus i hope and know that somehow, there are match for my organ so i could help those that needs it, and give them a chance at life.the sense of satisfaction of helping others its something different.if i would go and let others b happy, i guess i would, take one for the team like it says. just like the movie armegadon, bruce willies sacrifice himself so he could save the world and he know his daughter would have someone to take care of her as he stay to blow up the asteriod and sent her bf back to earth. ahh.... such hollwood. but den again, u get the idea, my purpose is to help n give others a chance. and i hope others would sign up too, as we could help our future generation.God bless.



Tuesday, March 4, 2008

17th Annual HandiCamp

17th Annual HandiCamp(Camp for Severely Handicapped Children and Adults 2008)
Greetings from staff and special student of Bethany Home.
We are happy to inform you that the above camp will be held as follows;
Date : 14-16 March 2008 (3 Days 2 Nights)
Place : Cameron Highlands
Activitiesv Handicapped games/ Unified Team Gamesv
Paintingv
Visiting Local Placesv
Party Nightv
About Special Education and Disabled Friendly Placesv
Understanding about Special Needs Peoplev
Planting Trees (Community Project)v
Shopping with Special Needs People

Aims and Objectives of organizing camps.
v We, Bethany Home, believe that all Special Needs People have the right tolearn, enjoy and participant in activities like normal people.

v To build a disabled friendly community.v Widen life's experience for Special Needs People.

v Creating an opportunity for kind hearted volunteer to show their love tospecial needs people.

v Through the camp, Special Needs People can develop their learning andunderstanding abilities.

v Participating full time (3 days 2 nights) and taking care of Special NeedsPeople is the best way to learn about Special Needs People.

v Experience and knowledge gained through the camp can be shared with thecommunity.

v To provide an opportunity for Special Needs People to enjoy camp life.


According to the above Aims and Objectives, the volunteers ("able bodied"so called normal people) from the community will experience living with theSpecial Needs Person for 60 to 70 hours (3 days and 2 nights). During thecamp, they will have to eat, sleep, play, bathe, wash and even cleaningafter toileting for the Special Needs People. My staff will be there to helpthe worried and frightened volunteers.These volunteers will even take them out for a meal in the public. Avolunteer's job is to make sure that Special Needs People enjoy themselvesand feel accepted.At the end of the day, the volunteers will have a taste of what the parentsand siblings of Special Needs People have to go through every day, 365 daysa year. The volunteers quite often return home appreciating what they have,thanking God for their own families and also their health. Since they havebeen TOUCHED by the Special Needs People during the camp, we hope they willbe more willing to accept Special Needs People as "NORMAL People who happento be a little SLOW".
We have discovered that TALKING and PREACHING are ineffective in changingpeople's mind set. Camps like these have brought better results. In 2007,more than 200 people from the community who took part in our 3 camps wereblessed with new experiences and meaning in life. More than 150 SpecialNeeds People also had a chance to take part in these camps.


to go or not to go.. thats the question?

chu pa kai!



am suppose to be sleeping by now due to slight fever but i cant get one thing off my mind, which rage my anger.

the guy in the middle, once said in his blog " i don understand/like my housemate, two of them have gf and still check out girls", no he is not one of my housemate, he is one of my friends hse mate. and yet he being a HUGE hypocryte.

if you cant hold responsible to your words, don, and never,ever say it. you might not like your housemate checking out chics, no am not close to ur housemate, and yet it angers me when you try to hit on other's girl. the thing is,you alredy know she have a boyfriend, and yes he might be all the way in melaka, but that don make you have the right to go hit on her. although you might got a crush on her, but hey, wake up she is taken, and yes she might not be married, but even if u might get her one day, the world is round and what goes around, comes around.

and for the girl, yes u might b young and stuff, and if u wanna flirt around, dump ur guy and have as many flings as u wanted. or if the pig(chu pa kai) giving u the "special" treatment and attention, isn't it obvious he trying to hit on u? if u wanted to play along, its obvious that u are cheating on ur guy at melaka, u can cut it off with the pig IF and IF u really care for the guy in melaka.

the thing here, i dono the girl, the guy in melaka and the (chu pa kai) pig i just know him so-so.. but it pissed me off when all this happen.yes i know its their life, but this is just my opnion.you might agree or u might not. like once i told my cousin i wanted a tatoo, and he told me " don b studpid, it might look nice now, but when old, all ur skin will sag and it b ugly" and yet during chinese new year, he had his. the question is, why people don do what they say? and the thing they say they wont do, is the actual thing they will do.thus, don say anything if u don mean it.

Monday, March 3, 2008

trust?

if any of u have E! and watched e news, surely u might know the police is trying to consider looking into an alligation of the claim that sam, britney's best fren drug her food as a result, of her gone out of control.

how much can we trust the people around us? even if we know them for ages, its still hard to tell if they have any intention. trust are build, not be given just beacause they might give us a good time. but what kinda fren that would cause us trouble and threaten our health rite? we might noe know what they given us to drink or eat.

but who knows.. whats inside, they might give u a smile but...

craazy

ever heard the saying " bad guys always win?" i don really belive in that, but harsh reality is, somehow thats the way of life is. i mean, look at all the good guy i noe, and yet they are been taken advantage of, because they are too nice? i mean is it a crime to be nice? for example is have a fren, X that do everything for his gf, in the end, the girl just go with him when she feels like it, and when she don feel like it, she don even bother. does girl really like to be treated like trash? or they just know, that the good guy will be there for them, no matter what they do, thus they take advantage, to go roam around, flirt or whatever. what about one day the guy just have enough and just walk away. will it be too late for the girl to wake up? or she just wont feel ANYTHING, as she got plenty of fishes in the sea.

the more i talk to people, or the more i know people, the more complex the world get. for example gay ppl, flings, materialistic parents so much stories and experience i've heard and witness. why can this world be either black or white?wrong or right? why do the right thing seem wrong and the wrong thing seem ever so right?where do we draw ANY line at all in this world!!!argh!!! and a quote from steven tyler when Aerosmith recover from their rock and roll life " drugs and alcohol take away everything from us, even our loved one"